Overcoming Fear v4: The Special Case Files

[StridingStrider]

Cycle #29 Off #1

Screwed up my cycles somewhat. During the week, I had an idea to run the loops during work, instead of at night. It turned out pretty well. Only thing is I'm not sure about doing it consistently like that. I may just run additional loops when I'm feeling anxious, instead of trying to plough through it. It did however turn out to be one of my best days. But I've also been experimenting with confidence pheromones, after a long hiatus. So I can't pinpoint what exactly led to that success, but it was nice. Everything just flowed.

[StridingStrider]

I'm currently running OF 1 day on 1 day off. I've lost count of the cycles now, but I'm continuing to run it. Lately I've been feeling more fearless. I've also reduced the volume down to 6 clicks on android, as per my intuition.

[Ampersnd]

How's it been going for you overall, sir?

[StridingStrider]

How's it been going for you overall, sir?

Hi Amper.

Overall it's been going pretty well. I mean, I've had ups and downs but that's to be expected. Recently I've been a lot more extroverted at work which is where I have the most problems. So, approaching 5 months and with optimisations a long the way the experience has been getting better. I'm still not where I want to be though, but, I'm on the right sub for me.

How about you? Reading your last post you're looking at DMSI? It sounds promising, especially with all the self development you've already done. Should be a killer.

[StridingStrider]

Feeling pretty stressed right now. I didn't run the program as I was supposed to last night, so maybe that's why. But come to think of it I've been pretty stressed out recently. Much more masturbation (without porn), fast food, coffee and even today smoking. I'm considering getting ASR, but I don't want to jeopardize or negatively influence what OF is doing. The stress today however has been on another level.

[StridingStrider]

Crap day. Felt my head go bright red during a lesson. Either something internal was happening or the DRS was firing up. Either way, it was uncomfortable.

Also had a kid tell me that no one liked me which was kind of embarrassing even though I'm not there to be anyone's friend. I deflected pretty well, but stuff like that affects you.

I'm glad I didn't purchase ASR as I think that would of just derailed the program. Although I do feel like running DMSI or something fun. Oh well, only two months left of the mandatory 7. I think I really need to work on my self esteem next. Whether that's through DMSI, LTU or E6.

[Ampersnd]

How's it been going for you overall, sir?

Hi Amper.

Overall it's been going pretty well. I mean, I've had ups and downs but that's to be expected. Recently I've been a lot more extroverted at work which is where I have the most problems. So, approaching 5 months and with optimisations a long the way the experience has been getting better. I'm still not where I want to be though, but, I'm on the right sub for me.

How about you? Reading your last post you're looking at DMSI? It sounds promising, especially with all the self development you've already done. Should be a killer.

Happy to hear that it's going well for you. Try to keep track of your minor behaviors and how those change over time. People's reactions change from that.

This is true; there have been recent improvements. and I want to lock those in, which I'll do by continuing my run for a while.
I suppose I'm verbally 'quitting' my run of OF, but how long that will take will come down to instinct.

[StridingStrider]

Feeling like moving on from the program. I'm no longer excited to run it; it's feeling like a chore. Maybe this is resistance, but five months now and I want to try something else. I haven't achieved the end goal but I've definitely made progress along the way. I might not stop now, but, I don't think I'll be on for much longer. I may try staying on for the seven month mark, but I don't expect anything extraordinary to happen. I could also try changing the format to see if that helps...

ASR has my eye again. I'm tempted to try that soon to see if tension is the problem. however $300 is a lot to spend on a whim... maybe a subscription?

[Frosted]

Feeling like moving on from the program. I'm no longer excited to run it; it's feeling like a chore. Maybe this is resistance, but five months now and I want to try something else. I haven't achieved the end goal but I've definitely made progress along the way. I might not stop now, but, I don't think I'll be on for much longer. I may try staying on for the seven month mark, but I don't expect anything extraordinary to happen. I could also try changing the format to see if that helps...

ASR has my eye again. I'm tempted to try that soon to see if tension is the problem. however $300 is a lot to spend on a whim... maybe a subscription?

You’ve made it this far don’t stop now! You only have 2 months to go before you hit the minimum. Sometimes it becomes a chore to press play and the excitement can fade but what separates the people who get the best results and the people who get mediocre results is the decision you’re facing right now. OF4 is probably the number 1 subliminal you don’t want to shortchange. How long you run it will decide the effectiveness of all future subliminals you run.

[StridingStrider]

Feeling like moving on from the program. I'm no longer excited to run it; it's feeling like a chore. Maybe this is resistance, but five months now and I want to try something else. I haven't achieved the end goal but I've definitely made progress along the way. I might not stop now, but, I don't think I'll be on for much longer. I may try staying on for the seven month mark, but I don't expect anything extraordinary to happen. I could also try changing the format to see if that helps...

ASR has my eye again. I'm tempted to try that soon to see if tension is the problem. however $300 is a lot to spend on a whim... maybe a subscription?

You’ve made it this far don’t stop now! You only have 2 months to go before you hit the minimum. Sometimes it becomes a chore to press play and the excitement can fade but what separates the people who get the best results and the people who get mediocre results is the decision you’re facing right now. OF4 is probably the number 1 subliminal you don’t want to shortchange. How long you run it will decide the effectiveness of all future subliminals you run.

Thanks for your concern Frosted. I'm inclined to agree with you, but I think seven months is an arbitrary number to begin with. Like, not everyone will have cleared out all fear in those seven months, which I think Shannon acknowledges in the product description. Having said that, I will probably carry on another two months, until I'm ready to move on. I don't think there's a correct answer here, you can only approach the question intuitively.

In any case, I had an interesting dream last night. In it, a big spider which I think I've dreamt about before was bottled up in a glass container just above my bed and was slowly dying from starvation and perhaps lack of oxygen. I interpret this to mean a fear around women is slowly dissolving.

[StridingStrider]

Update. So I haven't run OF for the past five or so days. Just no desire to. However, I have now purchased ASR after some mulling and towing and intend to run it for the last two months of OF in the sleep inducing configuration. Depending on how that turns out I may stay on OF longer or switch to ASR fully depending on what happens.

After a period of reflection I think stress as defined as how you react when placed under pressure may be what I've been grappling with from the start. Although I tend to think fear must be at the root of it at some level, and running the OF's has certainly helped me. Perhaps this combination will work magic. I hope so.

I will be returning to the original ASBR2 ratio of 2:4 as I think running it more than that contributed to my subconscious burnout. Let's go!

[StridingStrider]

Initial impressions of ASR so far. I ran it for 15 minutes at the start of my loops and felt it affecting my feet, mouth and ear drums towards the end of it. It was very subtle, and I felt I needed longer to fully relax. I ran it at around 19:30 and woke up at midnight. After some time fiddling around trying to get back to sleep I ran it again. This time the sensation wasn't so much in my face as in my feet again.

This morning the effects aren't so profound as for Shannon. My muscles aren't glowing like after a good massage, unfortunately. I do have a slight headache though. Mood so far is good, calm and relaxed. I'm looking forward to running it tonight and seeing what the cumulative affects will be.

Oh and I keep having dreams about my work colleagues, a different one each time. This happened during my break as well. Not a huge fan of this.

[StridingStrider]

So, I ended up running two loops of ASR before my OF loops. I ran two as after 45m, plus an extra 15 I couldn't get to sleep. I initially planned to let OF play after the first full loop but I thought fuck it let's try another full loop and see if I get to sleep then. Well, nope. Either I resist ASR or I'm more stressed then I realise.

I'm now on a four day bloom. Regardless of the outcome, ASR intrigues me. I do feel the subliminal relaxing certain muscles of the body but it doesn't produce the same sensations that Shannon describes. Maybe with further use that will change.

My dreams have also changed. Instead of more abstract fears being dealt with I'm dreaming of close contacts shall we say, like family and work colleagues appearing in my dreams, which I've mentioned before. I wonder if this is ASR.

[StridingStrider]

I feel myself embracing ASR more and more. I may leave OF at this point.

I've been running ASR loops during my break and today I've noticed that playing the program at much higher volumes is having an effect on me. I felt my arms loosen up, and with an additional loop my stomach as well. I'm not sure what to make of this, except that I must be super stressed that I don't even notice anymore.

I also want to mention the TID I was getting on the run up to buying this program. My thoughts felt clearer, to the point that I thought I was getting TID from MLS or something. My thinking was better, and I was connecting dots a lot more. Also, I was a lot more confident, bordering on being ridiculous. Maybe that's a combination of OF + ASR TID, but who knows. It involved ASR though. I think I'll try running it solo for a while, and see what it can do.

Oh, and the back pain for the past couple days has been horrible. ASR has helped relieve that somewhat.