04-29-2013, 09:36 AM
I'll be moving on to alpha 5.0 tonight, so I figured I'd sum up my experience with this sub.
For me, it was slow. I blame my fear of letting go of fear. So it had to be chipped away little by little until I was ready. But there is no doubt in my mind that the fear has been minimized. The past month I've been able to find a job and I've even got a potential internship coming up so things are looking up. Prior to this I couldn't even look for jobs online without being filled with fear and anxiety. I think the biggest result was moving past the negative internal dialogue that always told me I shouldn't do something or I couldn't. I was able to push past those fears.
I also definitely shed a lot of guilt and shame feelings. I learned to express myself better and not hold it against myself when I had my bad days. Not a lot of outwardly manifested stuff, but it just feels like I let go of a huge burden that I had been carrying for no real reason. I think I learned to not be so hard on myself. And I told myself that in the past, but no matter how many times I said it I'd always revert to my old ways. This sub helped break that cycle.
Overall I was doubtful of the effects when I first started this sub. But the more I used it the more it really helped me grow. It seems like I did it all on my own and pushed myself. But I recognize that had it not been for this sub I would have been stuck in my self defeating ways.
For me, it was slow. I blame my fear of letting go of fear. So it had to be chipped away little by little until I was ready. But there is no doubt in my mind that the fear has been minimized. The past month I've been able to find a job and I've even got a potential internship coming up so things are looking up. Prior to this I couldn't even look for jobs online without being filled with fear and anxiety. I think the biggest result was moving past the negative internal dialogue that always told me I shouldn't do something or I couldn't. I was able to push past those fears.
I also definitely shed a lot of guilt and shame feelings. I learned to express myself better and not hold it against myself when I had my bad days. Not a lot of outwardly manifested stuff, but it just feels like I let go of a huge burden that I had been carrying for no real reason. I think I learned to not be so hard on myself. And I told myself that in the past, but no matter how many times I said it I'd always revert to my old ways. This sub helped break that cycle.
Overall I was doubtful of the effects when I first started this sub. But the more I used it the more it really helped me grow. It seems like I did it all on my own and pushed myself. But I recognize that had it not been for this sub I would have been stuck in my self defeating ways.
