10-26-2024, 01:07 PM
I've come to some conclusions about my so-called "stuffies and thingies" and now I'm through with them, I guess. I don't even feel like using or practicing them anymore, don't feel the need to.
Honestly, I read some psychoanalysis books and it would appear that I was using them in order to "stabilize" myself, in a way (in Lacanian psychoanalysis, it's called "looking for a sinthome", long story, people who go through psychosis kinda need it to stabilize their perception of reality, like f. in. Car Jung did after he went bonkers). There's a very nice kinda pop-science book you can find on Amazon for 10 bucks on the subject called "Why psychosis is not so crazy?", lol (I also read a more involved, professional tome on the same subject by the same author right after - very funky).
The only trouble is that I have invested a not-inconsiderate amount of money in the stuff, but, eh, I guess you live and you learn. Mostly books, but also other things. I can always make more money, eh.
Been feeling a bit better, although I am sad today because I went to singing practice and it went *great* - trouble is, I have nowhere to show it off, oyy, which makes me sad.
I have made some really nice new friends in that community I joined some time ago (they have some attractive ladies there, can't wait to DMSI them when the time comes
). Distanced myself from another friend group (and I will keep my distance as long as they keep revering that deranged ex-girlfirend of mine). I did promise a dude I'll be going to his birthday party with that woman in attendance, oy vey, but eh. I've suffered her this long, one night out should not make much of a difference.
I do miss the DRS, though. Made my life much easier.
Depressive symptoms are lessened, my libido is making a bit of a return which I'm enjoying.
Back to dieting, I'm still below 100 kg but I want to get down do 90 kg. Then I'lll feel sexy enough to go on like, sexy-times websites, post up some pics, look for some ladies to do the nasty with.
Otherwise, working translation jobs, I have two new customers lined up. Won't mind the money, gotta save up for them premium programs.
Honestly, I read some psychoanalysis books and it would appear that I was using them in order to "stabilize" myself, in a way (in Lacanian psychoanalysis, it's called "looking for a sinthome", long story, people who go through psychosis kinda need it to stabilize their perception of reality, like f. in. Car Jung did after he went bonkers). There's a very nice kinda pop-science book you can find on Amazon for 10 bucks on the subject called "Why psychosis is not so crazy?", lol (I also read a more involved, professional tome on the same subject by the same author right after - very funky).
The only trouble is that I have invested a not-inconsiderate amount of money in the stuff, but, eh, I guess you live and you learn. Mostly books, but also other things. I can always make more money, eh.
Been feeling a bit better, although I am sad today because I went to singing practice and it went *great* - trouble is, I have nowhere to show it off, oyy, which makes me sad.
I have made some really nice new friends in that community I joined some time ago (they have some attractive ladies there, can't wait to DMSI them when the time comes
). Distanced myself from another friend group (and I will keep my distance as long as they keep revering that deranged ex-girlfirend of mine). I did promise a dude I'll be going to his birthday party with that woman in attendance, oy vey, but eh. I've suffered her this long, one night out should not make much of a difference.I do miss the DRS, though. Made my life much easier.
Depressive symptoms are lessened, my libido is making a bit of a return which I'm enjoying.
Back to dieting, I'm still below 100 kg but I want to get down do 90 kg. Then I'lll feel sexy enough to go on like, sexy-times websites, post up some pics, look for some ladies to do the nasty with.
Otherwise, working translation jobs, I have two new customers lined up. Won't mind the money, gotta save up for them premium programs.
"A man who is doing his True Will has the inertia of the Universe to assist him." - A. Crowley
