OGSF; Neutrino Bomb

[Chris P. Bacon]

So going through the OGSF page to see if it has state shifting as I wanted to try running the special meditations and was checking to see if OGSF has state shifting. I was pretty sure it did, but I checked anyways.

While I was rereading the description I came across this statement. "A: This is an extremely powerful program.  For most people, it will be very obvious when it is doing it's job.  You may experience periods of irritability, tiredness or anxiety while using this program."

This would pretty much sum up my last 1 1/2 months on this sub. No I have gone through a few rough patches on subs but none have lasted more than 4 days. It's been close to 45 days that I have been experiencing difficulties on this sub. I thought it was health-related but it may be been entirely sub-related.

Today is supposed to be my first day on but I'm not sure if I want to run it so I could give myself a little time and perspective. However, interrupting a subliminal's work in progress has never been a good idea especially when it's fear related.

It's been a hard slog on this sub for me which has been made more challenging as my previous sub was OPH; that made me feel good in a broad sense.

Feeling very fatigued on this sub, but I know that it's working on something deep. I just wish it would work a little faster.



All that being said I've noticed I don't react entirely like I used to my common fear triggers and it's a clear sign of improvement, it's just taking a while to get there.

"I wish it would work faster," he says.  LOL!  My friend, when it comes to fear, the sub doesn't decide how fast it works - you do.

The irritability type experience results when the sub achieves that razor's edge balancing act where the subconscious is executing and making progress, even though it really doesn't want to, and it's unhappy to have to face this.  Push too hard and it overloads and shuts down.  Faster is up to you and your individual needs; what YOU can handle.  Not me.

Yea I was definitely complaining.

I've never gone through such a prolonged period of difficulty on a sub and it was certainly getting to me. There were a few physical issues compounding it I think? It can be hard to tell if it was entirely sub-related as well because of my health journey that is still ongoing, but improving  .

Anyway, after that little stint of complaining it seemed to break finally. In the last stint, there was a sensation in the front of my brain that seemed to feel like the very definition of stress. Not fear, but stress. With a little breathwork, I was able to "pop" it out of my brain/head and I haven't been struggling since.


Resolution 

It must have been a very primal fear. Something so deep that all that time was necessary. I feel a bit more complete these days like some part of me is reintegrated into the whole. 

More outgoing, even on difficult days, happier, and background stress is considerably less.

It was hard but I'm glad I didn't jump to USLM because I thought about it.

Since then it's been quiet and some days I forget to run it or it might not be necessary to run anymore?

I'm still going to put in my 6 months and assess if I should continue running it.