03-18-2023, 04:50 PM
I just realized how perfectionism is ruining my life, i always try to do perfect in everything i do but when it goes wrong i get mad, then keep trying and nothing changes but then i accept i can do nothing about it and lose whatever motivation i had for doing it, so if i'm doing something it has to be perfect or i lose the desire if i know i can't, most likely my depression could be product of that frustration (i already knew that but need to remind it sometimes), now without that drive i just can't see myself doing something or even trying, i will just say FUCK MYSELF i'm going to do a mess and get so mad because i can't control anything until i can't even stand up.
