OFV4 Special Case Use; Digging Deep

[Chris P. Bacon]

My sense of time is changing. As a child I didn't have the best sense of time so my dad kind of drilled it into me. Most likely it was a stressful scenario for me that lasted well after the lesson was learned. I became decent at tracking time but it took quite a bit of effort and most likely some fear to do so. Last night I woke up and thought that it must be pretty close to the time my alarm goes off but then as I was laying in my bed I realized that I could still hear OF ultrasonic running. Now curious, I proceeded to get out of bed to check on what loop it was on. OF was only partway through loop 3 of 5. this kind of shocked me as even when wake up in the middle of the night I can kind of guess around what time it is. Also, when my alarm woke me up I stayed in bed a bit and had a half awake dream and came out of it thinking it must have been around a half hour after my alarm went off, it was only 13 minutes. Work also flew by very quickly today as well. On another sleep note, I may have to reduce the amount of melatonin I take before I go to bed. Whenever I take too much I get a "melatonin hangover". I've been at my current dose for over half a year and haven't experienced a melatonin hangover in all that time but for the past few days I have. In fact it may be a few years since I've experienced one for all I know.

I have been intentional about letting OF get into my head in a literal sense. I've been allowing or willing OF when it's on to go into the charka or whatever it is in the head and I can really feel it in there when I get the volume right; not too high or low.

Dreams continue and in this version of OF dreams seem to make much more of a difference on my waking self than other subs.

A few other things but it's too early to be sure on them so I'll be observing the changes and see if they stick around.