06-28-2020, 01:58 AM
Thanks, Shannon.
Round 1 - 1 night off, out of 3.
I ended up listening to it in the usual way, and the funny thing is as soon as I put it on, my girlfriend heard it and was like what is that and started searching around to find the source until she got near me and my phone in hand haha. She must have a super-sensitive hearing because as soon as I pressed play, she was on it. She wanted me to turn it off at first, but once I explained to her what it was, she was cool with it playing.
Based on one of last nights dreams, I feel like the program must be numbing or blocking stuff in the day and sorting it out when I sleep. As the dream touched on one of my insecurities, but this week it hasn't been there in my awareness as strong and intense as it was before, but in the dream it was, but when I woke up I felt detached from it somewhat, but at the same time it felt like it was being worked on. It is very interesting indeed. I have been really looking forward to hitting play each night. It was cool having a night off last night and I am interested to see how the next two nights off will be, being able to recharge without input is a positive aspect. Looking forward to starting round two though.
All in all, I have enjoyed round one, I am finding it interesting and I am looking forward to seeing how it unfolds. A part of me doesn't want to get my hopes up to high, but I suppose we will see as the months' progress.
Being with my girlfriend since Friday till Sunday was a pleasant experience and none of my insecurities got triggered in an overpowering way that would make me react irrationally. I was aware of a few instances (thoughts based on externals), but they didn't have much power over me so I could much more be just aware of them rather than seeing RED!
I have never used the DRS, but there was a moment where we were talking and there was a slight misunderstanding, but I could see there was a misunderstanding as to my girlfriend's response, her facial expression and the fact she wanted to immediately change the subject, but before this situation in the past It would have made me react, but this time I could observe what was going on (without being triggered, in reaction to her reacting). It was so cool because I could observe what was going on with the situation and her reaction, but I did not react in return and I could just logically see the situation for what it was and then just talk to her and calmly explain and resolve the misunderstanding in a piece of cake way.
I also became aware of interactions with my family members especially my mother. The same kind of thing where they would react a certain way, and then that would trigger me to react etc. Well in this situation I noticed I said something that would normally get a reaction, but she didn't react in her trigger way, to which I then didn't because she didn't etc. It was really obvious to me when it happened, it was like this is weird.
I think I have witnessed the shield bouncing back stuff, but I think I will need more time to experience situations of that nature to say 100% with examples, as it is a new experience for me. But yeah I have noticed some changes.
I have always wondered why when someone reacts in a negative way why do I feel their reaction super strongly and then it makes me react. What I am noticing with the situations above, this program is getting its hands right in there and changing this exact phenomenon I have always wondered about.
Round 1 - 1 night off, out of 3.
I ended up listening to it in the usual way, and the funny thing is as soon as I put it on, my girlfriend heard it and was like what is that and started searching around to find the source until she got near me and my phone in hand haha. She must have a super-sensitive hearing because as soon as I pressed play, she was on it. She wanted me to turn it off at first, but once I explained to her what it was, she was cool with it playing.
Based on one of last nights dreams, I feel like the program must be numbing or blocking stuff in the day and sorting it out when I sleep. As the dream touched on one of my insecurities, but this week it hasn't been there in my awareness as strong and intense as it was before, but in the dream it was, but when I woke up I felt detached from it somewhat, but at the same time it felt like it was being worked on. It is very interesting indeed. I have been really looking forward to hitting play each night. It was cool having a night off last night and I am interested to see how the next two nights off will be, being able to recharge without input is a positive aspect. Looking forward to starting round two though.
All in all, I have enjoyed round one, I am finding it interesting and I am looking forward to seeing how it unfolds. A part of me doesn't want to get my hopes up to high, but I suppose we will see as the months' progress.
Being with my girlfriend since Friday till Sunday was a pleasant experience and none of my insecurities got triggered in an overpowering way that would make me react irrationally. I was aware of a few instances (thoughts based on externals), but they didn't have much power over me so I could much more be just aware of them rather than seeing RED!
I have never used the DRS, but there was a moment where we were talking and there was a slight misunderstanding, but I could see there was a misunderstanding as to my girlfriend's response, her facial expression and the fact she wanted to immediately change the subject, but before this situation in the past It would have made me react, but this time I could observe what was going on (without being triggered, in reaction to her reacting). It was so cool because I could observe what was going on with the situation and her reaction, but I did not react in return and I could just logically see the situation for what it was and then just talk to her and calmly explain and resolve the misunderstanding in a piece of cake way.
I also became aware of interactions with my family members especially my mother. The same kind of thing where they would react a certain way, and then that would trigger me to react etc. Well in this situation I noticed I said something that would normally get a reaction, but she didn't react in her trigger way, to which I then didn't because she didn't etc. It was really obvious to me when it happened, it was like this is weird.
I think I have witnessed the shield bouncing back stuff, but I think I will need more time to experience situations of that nature to say 100% with examples, as it is a new experience for me. But yeah I have noticed some changes.
I have always wondered why when someone reacts in a negative way why do I feel their reaction super strongly and then it makes me react. What I am noticing with the situations above, this program is getting its hands right in there and changing this exact phenomenon I have always wondered about.
