COMPLETED: 34/34 days
After some questioning what is best for my PTSD I decided to go for it and start with ASC 5g, I so do not want to dig up that past yet. I will commit to keep adding to this journal until 32 days are done, so I can then decide weather this is for me and if I liked it, I will keep going for 2 additional months like recommended.
About my avatar: I was surprised to find that so many are using lion as their avatar pic including Shannon , but after all a lion is the king of the wild. I just chose it since my horoscope is Leo and people tell me that I look like a lion due to having similar hair. Lion has also been my animal of protection/guidance in my dreams, but haven't dreamed of one for some time.
So here's day 1: Went through the night using earphones, already the first few hours showed some significant improvements in my attitude of confidence, followed by daydreaming about situations during which I felt really confident. Might be the excitement of starting the program so not solid proof of my progress yet.
On to the dreams: I saw a weird mixture of lord of the rings and harry potter where at some point I had to take off all my clothes to go through a portal to meet voldemort, only to come to a realization that once I went through the portal I was on a stage, naked, in front of 30+ people (probably one of my acting tutors always tells me that the best actor is the one that is completely naked on a stage, not from clothes but with ego), I felt unusually confident entertaining the public considering I was butt naked and some woman, probably emma watson gave me her panties to wear (probably should have kept that bit of information).
The other was where I was criticized and told to keep my hands off for messing up something and I had the courage to tell them off and left, which I haven't been able to do much in the past. Not yet sure if that's always a good thing, but it sure is a step forward towards not letting people walk all over me.
Waking up after 9 hours I felt very confident, and kept the tracks playing in my headphones for 2 more hours. Whilst feeling oddly/differently tired.
Most of the mental videos were about me working in sales again, feeling like I could achieve anything if I went back with this confidence and having grown so much. Mostly about being cocky and telling everything that I could easily make a few grand worth of sales in my first week and then of course doing it, feeling like a great leader, strong alpha male and a great speaker.
After these 2 hours I spent on the forums (8 hours skipping meals, ADHD at it's finest) trying to make sense of things related to these programs and generally reading, quite focused on getting more information although most of it seemed to fly right through. Might have hit my mental energy capacity and pushed too hard.
Feeling now like most of the information I read about doesn't stick, has been a problem in the past, but I've never done anything about it. Feeling of anger and irritability have come up, can't stand people eating with sound!
After some questioning what is best for my PTSD I decided to go for it and start with ASC 5g, I so do not want to dig up that past yet. I will commit to keep adding to this journal until 32 days are done, so I can then decide weather this is for me and if I liked it, I will keep going for 2 additional months like recommended.
About my avatar: I was surprised to find that so many are using lion as their avatar pic including Shannon , but after all a lion is the king of the wild. I just chose it since my horoscope is Leo and people tell me that I look like a lion due to having similar hair. Lion has also been my animal of protection/guidance in my dreams, but haven't dreamed of one for some time.
So here's day 1: Went through the night using earphones, already the first few hours showed some significant improvements in my attitude of confidence, followed by daydreaming about situations during which I felt really confident. Might be the excitement of starting the program so not solid proof of my progress yet.
On to the dreams: I saw a weird mixture of lord of the rings and harry potter where at some point I had to take off all my clothes to go through a portal to meet voldemort, only to come to a realization that once I went through the portal I was on a stage, naked, in front of 30+ people (probably one of my acting tutors always tells me that the best actor is the one that is completely naked on a stage, not from clothes but with ego), I felt unusually confident entertaining the public considering I was butt naked and some woman, probably emma watson gave me her panties to wear (probably should have kept that bit of information).
The other was where I was criticized and told to keep my hands off for messing up something and I had the courage to tell them off and left, which I haven't been able to do much in the past. Not yet sure if that's always a good thing, but it sure is a step forward towards not letting people walk all over me.
Waking up after 9 hours I felt very confident, and kept the tracks playing in my headphones for 2 more hours. Whilst feeling oddly/differently tired.
Most of the mental videos were about me working in sales again, feeling like I could achieve anything if I went back with this confidence and having grown so much. Mostly about being cocky and telling everything that I could easily make a few grand worth of sales in my first week and then of course doing it, feeling like a great leader, strong alpha male and a great speaker.
After these 2 hours I spent on the forums (8 hours skipping meals, ADHD at it's finest) trying to make sense of things related to these programs and generally reading, quite focused on getting more information although most of it seemed to fly right through. Might have hit my mental energy capacity and pushed too hard.
Feeling now like most of the information I read about doesn't stick, has been a problem in the past, but I've never done anything about it. Feeling of anger and irritability have come up, can't stand people eating with sound!