Mystic LTU 6 Journal

[Mystic Pymp]

...that he could look down from wherever he is and say he's disappointed... That's crushing. And that's one of the reasons for my great successes in the past months.

I have every bit of faith that if he's watching you, he's proud that you're investing the time and effort to better yourself. Keep it up, man. 

I won't make any further comments on this to avoid any Rule #4 violations, but I read your post and I felt in my heart that I needed to respond.

Thanks, I appreciate that. It's not easy to talk about this stuff but I feel like I needed to. It's good to know it connects with others.

Stage 1 Day 25 (32)

Thankfully I remembered to play the sub on my other laptop. It's so weird that soon I'll be switching to Stage 2, I'd swear it was last week when I started running LTU6...

My plan for reset kinda works. We'll see how I will fare when my mom goes to work and I have 9 hours only for myself, but so far yeah, it works. Obviously I may revert to my old habits once I'm back in the city but it's obvious and something I'll be mindful of.

I did some clean up in my self-improvement progress apps. I removed all those habit trackers that score 99% as I no longer need them and they will only make me sad or mad then I'll fail them because I need to prioritize other stuff. Also I've tweaked a couple of other stuff. In all honesty my number one goal for once I'm back in the city will be to figure out how to change my focus towards work and social interactions without loosing all the good habits like working out and reading books I've developed due to Corona.

Also, as for my mom, she seems... better? I don't know exactly what it is but she seems to deal better with life than she did a couple months ago. I'll write more on this if I figure it out but at this moment I'm just happy for her. I think she still have miles to go, but given everything she went through these past years I count all the small blessings. It's easy for me to demand much from her as if she was 30 and not 60. What I consider and excuse for her might be a genuine concern and I have no way of knowing this.