My UMS v2 (5.75.7G) Journal - Power & freedom

[GreekGod22]

So I've decided to quit using UMS. This was not an easy decision. I didn't notice much change after 7 months, not even luck manifestation, or increase in motivation.
It seemed like I was stonewalling the sub. Not resisting it, but also not executing it. I'll have to admit that I still have a lot of emotional pain underneath, I was kind of depressed during these whole months.
Even though making money is a great desire of mine, I guess that my mind just couldn't motivate itself on the money goal when my life was not in order.
And my 8 months relationship is close to an end, my GF wants to break up. And I'm going through an emotional turmoil.