@ Sarge - maybe. But I think its more of the after effects of Alpha being assimilated in my subconscious. Its like me trying to look for evidences of how the sub is working but my subconscious(which was fully soaked with Alpha subs for 6 months) is telling me to focus on what brings me gain(like focusing on my job). It's like I'm trying to do something but my subconscious is telling me to chill out and be unattached to the outcome. Its really hard to fight the subconscious. lol.
@Fonzy - thanks man. I've been following your journal from time to time. I love what Gratitude has brought into your life. It's quite an addictive feeling huh? I think you have nailed the thing on the head. Recently I've been feeling indifferent whether there's a gorgeous chick proximal to me. Instead I focus more on having fun. Whether she's interested or not it doesnt matter. All that matters is I had fun and that's it. But it doesnt discount my curiosity of how this thing works. I'm still all that interested in what **** this sub makes women do. lol
Been irritable and negative lately. Its like how I felt every time I go on through the first 3 stages of Alpha. But not really to that extent. I'm just pissed off at every thing stupid that people do. I have felt the effects of Alpha being integrated even after almost a month of not being exposed to Alpha stuff. Which draws me to the idea of doing Alpha again. Crazy dreams have popped up since my last post. From walking my dead dog to the filthy world of S&M and other taboo stuff (I dont engage in such things yet I dreamed about them).
edited: I think I'm liking the pissed off attitude right now. I feel like I'm becoming more like Logan(wolverine) with his badass IDGAF attitude. hahaha Maybe this is the manifestation of this line in the sub "If I am male, I now give myself complete permission to fully express my masculine sexiness and desirability, and I now do this effortlessly."
@Fonzy - thanks man. I've been following your journal from time to time. I love what Gratitude has brought into your life. It's quite an addictive feeling huh? I think you have nailed the thing on the head. Recently I've been feeling indifferent whether there's a gorgeous chick proximal to me. Instead I focus more on having fun. Whether she's interested or not it doesnt matter. All that matters is I had fun and that's it. But it doesnt discount my curiosity of how this thing works. I'm still all that interested in what **** this sub makes women do. lol
Been irritable and negative lately. Its like how I felt every time I go on through the first 3 stages of Alpha. But not really to that extent. I'm just pissed off at every thing stupid that people do. I have felt the effects of Alpha being integrated even after almost a month of not being exposed to Alpha stuff. Which draws me to the idea of doing Alpha again. Crazy dreams have popped up since my last post. From walking my dead dog to the filthy world of S&M and other taboo stuff (I dont engage in such things yet I dreamed about them).
edited: I think I'm liking the pissed off attitude right now. I feel like I'm becoming more like Logan(wolverine) with his badass IDGAF attitude. hahaha Maybe this is the manifestation of this line in the sub "If I am male, I now give myself complete permission to fully express my masculine sexiness and desirability, and I now do this effortlessly."
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