Slight confusion with the autoconfig but I figured it out. I logically felt like "I need a rest, this is too much and is draining me" but I had a strong feeling that was stronger than that of 'listen again tonight' so I did 3 loops last night.
More relaxed when I turn it on, not that same struggle I reported.
Had a dream where my dog wandered into an abandoned house and I was worried and went to find her and I got stuck in some weird trap where barb wire went around my neck and strangled me. I woke up feeling scared of losing my dog and also my parents. I decided to just stay with it and that should end with me being able to stay with it and it discharging eventually, but then my mind becomes aware of that and sabotages the whole thing in this usual way which seems to interrupt that process, which then made me angry. So it feels that whatever was coming up didn't complete because of that.
This morning I feel a little better than yesterday, a bit more energy. Though I still have heavy eyes and some tiredness, more than usual. For some reason I got up at like 7:30am where usually I get up at about 8:30-9am.
I kind of feel like playing games today, but here is where it's different. Usually i'd get this and feel really depressed and goto games especially on AM6 for example.. today I feel kind of calm, not depressed (though there's some sadness in the background) and feel like playing games.
But also unlike it usually being a compulsion there is also an element of "Ok I can play games, but after I get the other things I want to do done."
More relaxed when I turn it on, not that same struggle I reported.
Had a dream where my dog wandered into an abandoned house and I was worried and went to find her and I got stuck in some weird trap where barb wire went around my neck and strangled me. I woke up feeling scared of losing my dog and also my parents. I decided to just stay with it and that should end with me being able to stay with it and it discharging eventually, but then my mind becomes aware of that and sabotages the whole thing in this usual way which seems to interrupt that process, which then made me angry. So it feels that whatever was coming up didn't complete because of that.
This morning I feel a little better than yesterday, a bit more energy. Though I still have heavy eyes and some tiredness, more than usual. For some reason I got up at like 7:30am where usually I get up at about 8:30-9am.
I kind of feel like playing games today, but here is where it's different. Usually i'd get this and feel really depressed and goto games especially on AM6 for example.. today I feel kind of calm, not depressed (though there's some sadness in the background) and feel like playing games.
But also unlike it usually being a compulsion there is also an element of "Ok I can play games, but after I get the other things I want to do done."
