05-04-2012, 11:27 PM
Thanks Javier appreciated it.
So i'm not sure if its stage 5 or things outside but I have been feeling very depressed since starting it. So much so that people have asked if i'm ok. Not to sure what stage 5 is doing but only 1.5 weeks in so will wait and see. In all honesty I feel a lot like I did when I was starting high school at the moment. Feeling of loneliness coming up as well as feels of not being good enough.
I've started love and appreciated yourself. Its a toss up between that and extreme self esteem though as something I want to run till the end of stage 6 alpha. I know that my whole life I've never felt worthwhile, never felt loved and never felt good enough.
I've also finished up reading no more mr nice guy and its amazing how much I relate back to everything that it talks about in there. I'm working through everything in there along with my subs and therapy.
So i'm not sure if its stage 5 or things outside but I have been feeling very depressed since starting it. So much so that people have asked if i'm ok. Not to sure what stage 5 is doing but only 1.5 weeks in so will wait and see. In all honesty I feel a lot like I did when I was starting high school at the moment. Feeling of loneliness coming up as well as feels of not being good enough.
I've started love and appreciated yourself. Its a toss up between that and extreme self esteem though as something I want to run till the end of stage 6 alpha. I know that my whole life I've never felt worthwhile, never felt loved and never felt good enough.
I've also finished up reading no more mr nice guy and its amazing how much I relate back to everything that it talks about in there. I'm working through everything in there along with my subs and therapy.
The only person in life that can ever hold you back is yourself. So get out of your own way and start living the life you always dreamed of
