09-25-2017, 08:07 AM
I'm not sure how MLS is doing it but it is making me a more well-rounded individual. It's shoring up the weak points in my maturity levels and choices. I feel more solid as a person and instead of expecting the sub to do everything I am taking much more responsibility for my life. I am noticing the external control structures built into most societies including my own in the US, actively making the choice to be personally responsible because the freedom I get from being responsible is worth the work. I have no desire to be externally controlled or motivated anymore, I want to be my own person. Free and devoid of external control. Confidence is growing and in every situation where my confidence is internally tested, I make the choice to be confident. Any external confidence test initiated by others I ignore. They have no right to test me and I will just ignore them or respectfully tell them literally or figuratively that any opinion they have about me or my actions doesn't really amount to much in my book.
As to why I'm getting this sudden shot of maturity when starting MLS I have no idea. Maybe the only thing stopping me from personal growth was my belief that I wasn't capable of doing it. A belief that is now destroyed. I don't think I have felt so healthy internally before in my entire life. I have no regrets in choosing MLS.
As to why I'm getting this sudden shot of maturity when starting MLS I have no idea. Maybe the only thing stopping me from personal growth was my belief that I wasn't capable of doing it. A belief that is now destroyed. I don't think I have felt so healthy internally before in my entire life. I have no regrets in choosing MLS.
