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[LionMonkey]

Shannon, I think I may have a silly-high expectation for the girls and if they don't meet that I just can't care enough to spend more time with them and when they retaliate, I get a bit down (depends on the quality time we've had together) because of it.

I realize that girls are very different and are to be found in extremely different colors and flavors.. I think I must remind myself that girls are humans too and I am not perfect myself.. well I'm not thinking that way but I do consider some traits better than others but a girls sincere desire weakens my standards on personality traits (maybe this is just a reflection of me not having been with enough girls to know what I really want in a girl)


Stage 1 - Day 14


I'm extremely sore today. Feeling like a old man. I can't even bend a bit forward!

Having not really trained for the past month, I went to crossfit yesterday. It took the life out of me and I was sore the rest of the day.

Me, two of my buddies and a girl one of them is seeing, took out to our regular bar. I was extremely tired and didn't even know why I went at all. I was in a state of dizziness, where everything around me was hazy and only what I looked or focused at would have my attention and awareness.

I get a lot of eye-contact with girls sitting around. There was this group of 6 girls sitting at a corner table. Some of them looked at me from time to time and I could just feel it. Some turned their head to look too. Because I was so tired, I had no energy to have fun with my buddies so I positioned myself around the 6 girls, just to see what could happen.

At a point the blonde girl who seemed like the leader of the group locked eyes with me and motioned with her head and facial expression like, "nahh ahh.. you don't got a chance here". Whatever.

Nothing really happened, so I got over to them, for the sake of just doing it, without any expectation but also without any form of giving energy because I wouldn't be able to hold a conversation at all. I couldn't even with my friends.

I asked, "can I sit here?" there were two seats free which one of them replied, "you can sit there and pointed at on of them".

So I sat and I just observed them talking. They were ignoring me. I knew 2-3 of them showed non-verbal interests when I was positioned near them though.

Last girl, which was also the least physical attractive came and took the seat beside me and one of them said, "he's your new boyfriend".

I sat for 5 minutes and then I went back to my friends. Nothing interesting happened.. well I tested it out at least

Another interesting thing that happened was the girl my friend is seeing.. if my friends weren't there, I'm almost 100 on that she would take action to make something happen between us.

I felt that I had a sense of control of how our "relationship" could turn.

Then there was this another girl with her friend at our table, which one of my friends have slept with. He wasn't there tonight and the things between them have gone bad.

So at a point I hear her say something like, "I think I want him..", which her nice-guy friend said, "Then take him! He's right there!" She looked at me many times but I was too tired and she wasn't worth it. It ended up with her hooking up with my other friend which was hilarious.

Ahh.. all in all.. a decent night


Going out tonight again with a body, feeling like an old man to celebrate my birthday when the clock hits 00:00!