LionMonkey OF v3 – Lets do this!!

[LionMonkey]

[OF v3 - Day 3&4] – Social, fear & non-fear
Day 3 – OFF

Yaaaw!

Was out again - wed, thu, fri & sat, I was out. We decided 4-5 days/week.

It seems every day I've gone out, the next day I give less of a fuck and even more the next and so on...
And I realize, over and over again.. there's a new level of giving less of a fuck, and there's a next level just after this level etc.

It's an interesting phenomenon.

Like getting rid of your own limitations one social night at a time.

This can't be learned through reading though. It can only be learned in-person, engaging with chicks regularly. Not that this is the only way but I have found this is the way for me that works. I'm grateful I get to go to crowds of people with chicks and have a good time.

Met 10 chicks/groups and it was interesting to see how some chicks liked me, others not so much and the things I could do and say that would make them more interested.

Seems like lots of chicks need something extreme to become attentive and interested.

Anyway..

Things I've noticed about fear:

• Driving around in car with windows rolled down and other cars pass by with speed, I can sense a subtle hint of fear from my former self but I'm just chill. Icecold.
  

• Still had hesitation and I guess underlying fear to be putting myself fully out there with chicks I liked, on the dance-floor in the crowd. Instead I would just tune in to the music and dance on my own. Still enjoying it a lot but it's nothing new. Meeting strangers can be much more memorable.
  

• Had moments where I felt very uncomfortable bc. I stayed in the interaction where the chicks ignored me after my initial pouring out of energy, where they liked it and laughed.. but after that, they kept talking to my friend or just didn't want to engage. I feel I got 90-100% accuracy on when a chick has put me in the category of no thx and has closed herself off from me
  I decided to stay myself to feel the uncomfortableness.The smart thing to do next time is to meet some other chicks nearby showing you actually don't give a fuck.
  

• I had just approached 4 chicks and 1 of them had a vintage Ferrari jacket on. I talked to her about it and seconds after a beggar pulls on my arm, asking me for money.
  I brushed him off, motioning "no man". Then he did it again and said "Please".I flipped and yelled "FUCK OOFFFF!!" staring at him like I would kill him. He looked at me, saying sorry and kept an I'm sorry eyecontact while walking awayEveryone around heard it, some saw it and the chicks after a short moment, moved away. I sensed one chick liked it as she was staring at me, moving away with the other chicks.Never happened like this nor have I done anything like this before but it came natural.Had to have a minute to cool down and be ready to meet chicks again.I should have found those chicks and approached them later again, to see how they responded afterwards for experience.
  

It was a night of lots of interactions.
And I found not giving a fuck + girls just wanna have fun are the two essential keys that are filled with layers and layers of understanding that I got to explore more of...

-LM



Uproar, present vs in your head & attention close to your body
Day 4 – OFF

A day off from going out.

Woke after 6 hours sleep bc. came home last night like 5AM after partying. Feeling ok rested. 

This hasn't been normal for me in a long time so I think OF v3 has helped with waking up more in sync with my biological watch.

• Had a loud argument with my pops. I felt in control but later I felt I wanted to hit him. Could feel all the blood or adrenaline go to the shoulders and arms.
  

Been a long time since we argued like that but the other times, I felt very in my head repeating stuff and right and wrongs etc. 
This time, the whole thing disappeared quickly. I quickly forgot about the event both mentally and emotionally.. maybe the sub has something to do with it...

• I was driving around a lot today and noticed this 9/10 chick walking and I just enjoyed her while driving past. Saw she was talking with someone trhour her earpods. She looked to her left and we hit eyecontact and it was hot. She looked down and then to the left again and we enjoyed the moments there. I certainly did.
  

Then there were many other chicks I passed but nothing special.

• Also noticed I my attention was close to my body and then it would surge out like laser eyes every now and then. Probably from the 4 nights of going out...
  

• When I'm present in the moment, I'm ice-cold confident but when I'm in my head, I'm feeling uncomfortable, tense and not confident.
  Would happen after short interactions with 2 guys today and then I would catch myself a minute or two later and become present again.
  

That's it for now.

Another week ahead that I'm fortunate to get to experience!!

Having a 3rd day off from the subliminal and then I'm very excited to get some loops in again!

Have a great one!


-LM

PS. I feel it is very hard to gauge how many loops and how many days on and off with a 5.75.7G subliminal.
I feel it's very biased towards ones mindset of how those criterias will be formed...
It's hard in my view because time is involved and how do you know you are getting too little exposure or too much?
Logically I can't make sense of it!

EDIT:
Shannon explained there's an autoconfig, which makes you desire more or less exposure to the sub, so in that way, you sort of get a kind of "intuition" to play 2,3,4 etc loops each time and then you just follow that!