08-09-2016, 09:10 AM
day 141 - progress
I am almost over my crush. I understand she might have had feelings for me at one point in the time I've known her. I have been way to beta male with her. She is tall and good looking and has guys hitting on her all the time. I now understand that the universe isn't going to clear a path for me. so again, I must let this one go.
Crushes suck. actually, its my fault. I messed up.
I unfollowed her instagram when I was drunk last night. she promptly unfollowed me back.
I re-requested to follow her. I actually want to just be friends with her. I have to see her tonight...hope it goes smoothly cuz I did some stupid shite last night.
I also mis read my other friend and went in for a kiss...we made out for a bit and she was just drunk...not into me like that...oops...I apologized then went in for more. but she stopped it.
she said she would wing for me...chick wings are good sometimes.
my ex-crush's friend told me to move on. she also says I need to find new places to hang out because I'll meet more people that way.
I am actually not worried about finding a girlfriend. now that I am letting go of that crush, I kind of feel free. free to flirt with whoever without worrying what she will think. feels good. feels really good to say that.
so I feel like I just broke through another level of resistance. calm. positive.
I am almost over my crush. I understand she might have had feelings for me at one point in the time I've known her. I have been way to beta male with her. She is tall and good looking and has guys hitting on her all the time. I now understand that the universe isn't going to clear a path for me. so again, I must let this one go.
Crushes suck. actually, its my fault. I messed up.
I unfollowed her instagram when I was drunk last night. she promptly unfollowed me back.
I re-requested to follow her. I actually want to just be friends with her. I have to see her tonight...hope it goes smoothly cuz I did some stupid shite last night.
I also mis read my other friend and went in for a kiss...we made out for a bit and she was just drunk...not into me like that...oops...I apologized then went in for more. but she stopped it.
she said she would wing for me...chick wings are good sometimes.
my ex-crush's friend told me to move on. she also says I need to find new places to hang out because I'll meet more people that way.
I am actually not worried about finding a girlfriend. now that I am letting go of that crush, I kind of feel free. free to flirt with whoever without worrying what she will think. feels good. feels really good to say that.
so I feel like I just broke through another level of resistance. calm. positive.