08-03-2016, 02:34 PM
as much as I want to stick this out for the six months, I must switch to a sub that can help with my finances. I will do another run, hopefully the full 6 + months, in a year. so here's the last post and I will do a summary as a follow up.
day 136 - the drunken fool
I have been ignoring my crush, hey I'm still hung up on her. it seems to be working until...she getting annoyed and doing things like buying a round of shots for everyone except me...actually I don't know if she bought them but she made it clear I wasn't included. I started drinking heavily after that cuz it was bothering me. It bothered me because I lost social value and didn't know how to get it back. In the past I would've said something and made fun of them but I want to be classier than I was back then. anyway. I catch her looking at me every now and then but like I said, she has started to retaliate. now the bad news...I got so drunk, empty stomach, that I think I drunk texted her because I can vaguely remember seeing two or three consecutive texts that I think I sent her. I must have deleted them right away, who knows drunk logic right? she never replies to texts sent after 2am typically so I don't know if I did it or not. I must have if I kind of remember. I think it was like "I think you are wonderful. " and there were definitely 3 more lines of text though. I am praying to the universe they were positive and not another fu text. I will not see her until monday or tuesday next week. but I want to see her sooner. but I can't cuz I'm outta cash. and nobody like a broke ass. so I will be starting a 4 month ultra success run because I had a lot of success on it and I feel I could use a refresher.
oh. I met a girl at the bus station. I don't remember how. but I do remember making out with her for like an hour while she waited for her bus. I think she was early to mid 20's. she asked for my number. I texted her but no reply. didn't think it would go anywhere anyway.
everything else about the night was pretty good though.
day 136 - the drunken fool
I have been ignoring my crush, hey I'm still hung up on her. it seems to be working until...she getting annoyed and doing things like buying a round of shots for everyone except me...actually I don't know if she bought them but she made it clear I wasn't included. I started drinking heavily after that cuz it was bothering me. It bothered me because I lost social value and didn't know how to get it back. In the past I would've said something and made fun of them but I want to be classier than I was back then. anyway. I catch her looking at me every now and then but like I said, she has started to retaliate. now the bad news...I got so drunk, empty stomach, that I think I drunk texted her because I can vaguely remember seeing two or three consecutive texts that I think I sent her. I must have deleted them right away, who knows drunk logic right? she never replies to texts sent after 2am typically so I don't know if I did it or not. I must have if I kind of remember. I think it was like "I think you are wonderful. " and there were definitely 3 more lines of text though. I am praying to the universe they were positive and not another fu text. I will not see her until monday or tuesday next week. but I want to see her sooner. but I can't cuz I'm outta cash. and nobody like a broke ass. so I will be starting a 4 month ultra success run because I had a lot of success on it and I feel I could use a refresher.
oh. I met a girl at the bus station. I don't remember how. but I do remember making out with her for like an hour while she waited for her bus. I think she was early to mid 20's. she asked for my number. I texted her but no reply. didn't think it would go anywhere anyway.
everything else about the night was pretty good though.