Feels like I always come here bitching about how I feel, but well, this have been a rough patch. Felt really high levels of anxiety today, where I was more or less lost in it, and couldn't really break away from it, and that's when anxiety is worst - when you feel like "this is it" and all the thoughts that follow it, and don't understand it's your anxiety talking. But a run, which initially made things worse, but when I calmed down and had a shower I felt much better. Really looking forward to LTU6, think that the new FRM and sceleton script maybe can help me with this.
And another thing i noticed the anxiety does is that some days, or some parts of days when I feel more positive I start thinking about a future that I want to achieve and feel it's possible - but when anxiety hits, first the feeling of it being possible is erased, and the anxiety tells me that I have just been "imagining" that it was ever possible, like I'm doomed to fail. That sucks when it hits, but I'm happy that the positive periods are becoming more frequent and stay longer (from not being there at all just 6 months ago).
On a good note I will reach a financial goal later this month I set up for myself about one year ago, which is to have a financial buffer saved up for emergencies. I've set a amount that I always want to have in my checking account and always keep the balance there. So that feels good soon being achieved.
And another thing i noticed the anxiety does is that some days, or some parts of days when I feel more positive I start thinking about a future that I want to achieve and feel it's possible - but when anxiety hits, first the feeling of it being possible is erased, and the anxiety tells me that I have just been "imagining" that it was ever possible, like I'm doomed to fail. That sucks when it hits, but I'm happy that the positive periods are becoming more frequent and stay longer (from not being there at all just 6 months ago).
On a good note I will reach a financial goal later this month I set up for myself about one year ago, which is to have a financial buffer saved up for emergencies. I've set a amount that I always want to have in my checking account and always keep the balance there. So that feels good soon being achieved.
