10-27-2020, 05:11 PM
Stage 3, Day 17
Lately, I've noticed that when my anger is triggered, I return to baseline quickly. I don't get upset enough at anything to let it ruin my day. In fact, I've caught myself laughing at something humorous within minutes on multiple occasions. It's like my mind not only lets go, but focuses in a totally different direction. This has been happening for a while now, but I didn't think of writing about it until I decided to log and make a post. It's as if a part of me was aware that it was happening, but the conscious part that articulates inner knowledge was totally clueless. Now that I'm writing it, that gap has been bridged and I can see that it has been going on for a while now...even as far back as me stating in posts on this forum that nothing seemed to be happening. Damn.
The original reason I decided to post tonight was about a thought I had today. The thought was that maybe happiness and joy lie somewhere I've never consciously considered. Maybe LTU6 is leading me in a direction I've never anticipated. This type of thinking has crossed my mind before, but today it seemed more real at a deep, subtle level that's hard to describe.
Lately, I've noticed that when my anger is triggered, I return to baseline quickly. I don't get upset enough at anything to let it ruin my day. In fact, I've caught myself laughing at something humorous within minutes on multiple occasions. It's like my mind not only lets go, but focuses in a totally different direction. This has been happening for a while now, but I didn't think of writing about it until I decided to log and make a post. It's as if a part of me was aware that it was happening, but the conscious part that articulates inner knowledge was totally clueless. Now that I'm writing it, that gap has been bridged and I can see that it has been going on for a while now...even as far back as me stating in posts on this forum that nothing seemed to be happening. Damn.
The original reason I decided to post tonight was about a thought I had today. The thought was that maybe happiness and joy lie somewhere I've never consciously considered. Maybe LTU6 is leading me in a direction I've never anticipated. This type of thinking has crossed my mind before, but today it seemed more real at a deep, subtle level that's hard to describe.
