09-19-2020, 08:46 AM
Stage 2, Day 10
Lat night was my the first night of my ASRB2 break for my second cycle of stage 2. I needed it. I really wore myself out mentally over the past week. There are things I need to do today, but I'll most likely take it easy...one thing at a time and at my own pace.
Something I've observed over the past week or so is that I've been experiencing a pretty significant reduction in appetite. To give some context, from ~2011 through ~2016, I was into fitness pretty hardcore. Discovering intermittent fasting changed the game for me. I dropped 40lbs of mostly fat and in my late 30s I was leaner and more muscular than I was at 18. The method I used was that I would cycle my calories downward to unhealthy levels then gorge myself on my cheat day (beer, fajitas, & ice cream were favorites of mine). During the week, while I was starving, I was pushing myself through a high intensity calisthenics routine that pushed my body to the brink of what it could handle. My "success" came from a combination of body dismorphic obsession and the fact that I could use meal timing to engage in the gluttony that I craved. This gluttony issue is something I've wrestled with for as long as I can remember. I'm not sure what it stems from, but LTU6 seems to be getting a handle on it. I hope that this is indicative of long term change.
As a side note, I was looking through my profile/control panel to locate my journal this morning and realized that there's a reputation feature. I just wanted to say thanks to you guys for the positive comments and encouragement in the background. I'm very thankful for you all and I feel very fortunate to be a part of this online community.
Lat night was my the first night of my ASRB2 break for my second cycle of stage 2. I needed it. I really wore myself out mentally over the past week. There are things I need to do today, but I'll most likely take it easy...one thing at a time and at my own pace.
Something I've observed over the past week or so is that I've been experiencing a pretty significant reduction in appetite. To give some context, from ~2011 through ~2016, I was into fitness pretty hardcore. Discovering intermittent fasting changed the game for me. I dropped 40lbs of mostly fat and in my late 30s I was leaner and more muscular than I was at 18. The method I used was that I would cycle my calories downward to unhealthy levels then gorge myself on my cheat day (beer, fajitas, & ice cream were favorites of mine). During the week, while I was starving, I was pushing myself through a high intensity calisthenics routine that pushed my body to the brink of what it could handle. My "success" came from a combination of body dismorphic obsession and the fact that I could use meal timing to engage in the gluttony that I craved. This gluttony issue is something I've wrestled with for as long as I can remember. I'm not sure what it stems from, but LTU6 seems to be getting a handle on it. I hope that this is indicative of long term change.
As a side note, I was looking through my profile/control panel to locate my journal this morning and realized that there's a reputation feature. I just wanted to say thanks to you guys for the positive comments and encouragement in the background. I'm very thankful for you all and I feel very fortunate to be a part of this online community.
