Day 2
I'm running into some resistance. At work I have no desire to do any work. Thanks to MLS, I believe, I am able to see the bigger picture more clearly and how my role fits into the bigger map. There is no doubt to me that I am more perceptive. However, I just don't want to do anything. My depression is worsening from being in the current situation that I am in. My depression runs parallel to MLS. I do not believe MLS is causing depression per se, but I have no drive to accomplish tasks at work. I would much rather lookup articles online or take smoke breaks.
I am thirstier than ever. I make stops to the water fountain every 30 minutes to an hour to refill my cup. I am also craving protein and fat so I have prepared a modified version of Bulletproof Executive's Coffee: Protein powder mixed with a heaping scoop of coconut oil. I have also started making chicken and ham sandwiches.
My thoughts, words, and purpose are becoming more clear and I have a deeper understanding of myself and my environment. I am hoping to see more of this drive and success that MLS brings. So far it has inspired me to clean my apartment, eat more food and healthier food in general, and I am able to sit down and focus more easily. I feel like MLS is a good compliment to any sub. What I mean by this, is that (I theorize) that having a better memory has allowed me to rope together my past subliminal tracks and bring them into my reality. Instead of seeing all the subs I've done as a list: one after another, I am now seeing each sub as a building block in my self schema. I have gotten much better at Rocket league which is pretty cool. I have also noticed my vision is improving somewhat. The words on my screen are clearer and I can see a whole line without having the words blur out like before.
As I type this I am exhausted and desperately need a nap which I will soon do when I get off work, so excuse my rambling.
I got next to no sleep last night. My brain was on fire. I definitely made a mistake not keeping closer track of how many loops I was running. From today on I am sticking to the recommended 4 loops.
I'm running into some resistance. At work I have no desire to do any work. Thanks to MLS, I believe, I am able to see the bigger picture more clearly and how my role fits into the bigger map. There is no doubt to me that I am more perceptive. However, I just don't want to do anything. My depression is worsening from being in the current situation that I am in. My depression runs parallel to MLS. I do not believe MLS is causing depression per se, but I have no drive to accomplish tasks at work. I would much rather lookup articles online or take smoke breaks.
I am thirstier than ever. I make stops to the water fountain every 30 minutes to an hour to refill my cup. I am also craving protein and fat so I have prepared a modified version of Bulletproof Executive's Coffee: Protein powder mixed with a heaping scoop of coconut oil. I have also started making chicken and ham sandwiches.
My thoughts, words, and purpose are becoming more clear and I have a deeper understanding of myself and my environment. I am hoping to see more of this drive and success that MLS brings. So far it has inspired me to clean my apartment, eat more food and healthier food in general, and I am able to sit down and focus more easily. I feel like MLS is a good compliment to any sub. What I mean by this, is that (I theorize) that having a better memory has allowed me to rope together my past subliminal tracks and bring them into my reality. Instead of seeing all the subs I've done as a list: one after another, I am now seeing each sub as a building block in my self schema. I have gotten much better at Rocket league which is pretty cool. I have also noticed my vision is improving somewhat. The words on my screen are clearer and I can see a whole line without having the words blur out like before.
As I type this I am exhausted and desperately need a nap which I will soon do when I get off work, so excuse my rambling.
I got next to no sleep last night. My brain was on fire. I definitely made a mistake not keeping closer track of how many loops I was running. From today on I am sticking to the recommended 4 loops.
