03-06-2015, 09:55 PM
Listening Time: 13 hours
Lately I've been reading this book No More Mr. Nice Guy (Thanks to Benjamin's AM6 journal) and it has really been hitting home for me lately.
For me, the overall theme of the book is to put your needs first and only seek approval from yourself. As I look back over my life before the subs, I can count the number of times I've done things or actions that were based on approval from others and putting my needs aside for someone else. For a long time, I felt that was the right thing to do (to an extent, it is), but there were hardly any rewarding factors to show for it. I could tell within myself that I was never truly happy with how I was treated by others when I did things I was supposed to do for them. I was always expecting someone to give unto me the same value I was giving to them. Yet, I was disappointed every time I didn't get what I wanted. It was like I was constantly giving, yet there was hardly anything I get back that was of equal value. I tried to talk myself up in saying not to be selfish and to just give without expecting anything in return. Yet deep down, I knew that would never work and that I would only take this nonsense for so long.
Now, especially on Stage 3 of AM6, I have definitely been thinking only for myself lately (or at least 80% for myself). Whenever I come to a decision, I would ask myself questions like how would this benefit me and how do I truly feel about this. Lately I've been thinking of things that I want to get for myself, especially now that I have a source of income. The more I think of the things I want to get for myself, the more I realize I'm putting a lot of value upon myself. Especially if it's something that will genuinely make me happy as the end result, I now know that it's worth getting. I'm also noticing that the more I'm focusing on things that I want, the less I worry about what others are doing or need help with.
This has definitely been a big step forward in the right direction. For long time, I always thought it was selfish to think of your needs first before others. I now realize that I need to take responsibility for my own self in order to get my needs met. By doing so, it's bringing a new fresh air into my life and more greater purpose on the things I want to do and accomplish in the days to come.
Lately I've been reading this book No More Mr. Nice Guy (Thanks to Benjamin's AM6 journal) and it has really been hitting home for me lately.
For me, the overall theme of the book is to put your needs first and only seek approval from yourself. As I look back over my life before the subs, I can count the number of times I've done things or actions that were based on approval from others and putting my needs aside for someone else. For a long time, I felt that was the right thing to do (to an extent, it is), but there were hardly any rewarding factors to show for it. I could tell within myself that I was never truly happy with how I was treated by others when I did things I was supposed to do for them. I was always expecting someone to give unto me the same value I was giving to them. Yet, I was disappointed every time I didn't get what I wanted. It was like I was constantly giving, yet there was hardly anything I get back that was of equal value. I tried to talk myself up in saying not to be selfish and to just give without expecting anything in return. Yet deep down, I knew that would never work and that I would only take this nonsense for so long.
Now, especially on Stage 3 of AM6, I have definitely been thinking only for myself lately (or at least 80% for myself). Whenever I come to a decision, I would ask myself questions like how would this benefit me and how do I truly feel about this. Lately I've been thinking of things that I want to get for myself, especially now that I have a source of income. The more I think of the things I want to get for myself, the more I realize I'm putting a lot of value upon myself. Especially if it's something that will genuinely make me happy as the end result, I now know that it's worth getting. I'm also noticing that the more I'm focusing on things that I want, the less I worry about what others are doing or need help with.
This has definitely been a big step forward in the right direction. For long time, I always thought it was selfish to think of your needs first before others. I now realize that I need to take responsibility for my own self in order to get my needs met. By doing so, it's bringing a new fresh air into my life and more greater purpose on the things I want to do and accomplish in the days to come.
