10-14-2012, 03:36 PM
Still pretty wiped out. My energy levels are an annoyance right now, I realize that I've been pushing myself pretty hard for the last 2 years but still I'd like to not feel too wiped out to get out and enjoy something. Anything.
Today was day two of a professional seminar, I was mostly too zombiefied to make much use of my time there which also irritates me, but I did get something useful out of it, and had an interesting observation.
During one of the breaks one of the other guys there introduced himself. Asked me if I was still studying, or was a "practicing rocket surgeon". I told him I was still in school, and asked him the same question. "Andy" said he's been in practice for the last 11 years, and he's been practicing the exact branch and methodology of "rocket surgery" that I am interested in going into. Which is hilarious because it's something that the women in my school are quick to down me for, claiming that they'd never come to see a guy for that, and that it won't work the way I want to do it. And here I am with a guy who is obviously successful doing it pretty much exactly the way I want do it, and telling me why the way he does it/I want to be doing it is actually a really good way to go about it.
Cool.
I also noticed something else about "Andy", he brought a hottie with him who only had eyes for him, practically rubbing herself up against him. And yet. "Andy" still had the mannerisms of a "beta" or seemed unconfident somehow. Dunno, maybe he was as wiped out as I am. I certainly wasn't having any "alpha magic" moments today, but whatever I just want to sleep for a week and wake up refreshed. "Andy" seems to be in the situation that I'd like to occupy when I'm done with school. Dunno, dunno.
Today was day two of a professional seminar, I was mostly too zombiefied to make much use of my time there which also irritates me, but I did get something useful out of it, and had an interesting observation.
During one of the breaks one of the other guys there introduced himself. Asked me if I was still studying, or was a "practicing rocket surgeon". I told him I was still in school, and asked him the same question. "Andy" said he's been in practice for the last 11 years, and he's been practicing the exact branch and methodology of "rocket surgery" that I am interested in going into. Which is hilarious because it's something that the women in my school are quick to down me for, claiming that they'd never come to see a guy for that, and that it won't work the way I want to do it. And here I am with a guy who is obviously successful doing it pretty much exactly the way I want do it, and telling me why the way he does it/I want to be doing it is actually a really good way to go about it.
Cool.
I also noticed something else about "Andy", he brought a hottie with him who only had eyes for him, practically rubbing herself up against him. And yet. "Andy" still had the mannerisms of a "beta" or seemed unconfident somehow. Dunno, maybe he was as wiped out as I am. I certainly wasn't having any "alpha magic" moments today, but whatever I just want to sleep for a week and wake up refreshed. "Andy" seems to be in the situation that I'd like to occupy when I'm done with school. Dunno, dunno.
