10-07-2012, 03:16 PM
Couple of recent incidents that I wanted to jot down here before they slip away down the memory hole.
1-Last week walking to school my friend "Kim" runs up to me and bumps into me- basically shoulder checks me. Lots of friendly talk and kino ensue before our morning class. Kim's a Korean student at my school, a very cute girl and we've always flirted but in our first semester she started dating a Korean guy so I just let things simmer on the back burner. Kim is fairly traditional, so she prefers to date a Korean guy... or so I thought. She's always been responsive to my flirting, but she's never been this physically aggressive before.
Dating a fellow classmate is tricky at this school. We're a professional school, and I've narrowly avoided sexual harrasment BS so far. (Not that I'm doing anything beyond the bounds of polite society, but you pack a 10/1 female to male student ratio, which a fair number of those being menopausal man haters...and well, you gotta watch your ass. I've watched other guys targeted it ain't pretty.) Combined with the cultural issues, it's not time to make a move.
2-At an all weekend seminar this weekend. My former clinical intern who I followed was there, and completely snubbed me in front of a large group (all women of course.) My only interest in her as a person is professional, and polite acquaintance. I am fairly friendly by nature, but dissing me is one of those things that used to make me react like a venomous dick. Not so much the public attempt at shaming, it's more the presumption that another human being's opinion or a group of human's opinions means a good goddamn thing to me. It's the sort of thing that used to send me into a black black poisonous rage. Well, I've had to swallow a lot of that crap at this school so far. There's too much money involved to mess around going all rage-a-holic, and so on. My reaction this time was just a "huh, okay I'll go talk to the people who actually want to talk to me." And that was that emotionally for me. Today she was civil, and the important folks that she dissed me in front of were more than happy to talk to me.
3-Yesterday at lunch I ran into "her". So I'm a little old and jaded to be getting schoolboy crushes plus my school is filled beautiful intelligent neurotic women, but "Cindy" makes my eyes cross. We haven't been on the same schedule since semester 1, and I only recently started seeing her around school again last semester. Cindy's got a "serious boyfriend" too. (They all do dammit.) I just recently found out that he's also a student here. That would complicate things a bit....Anyway, we only talk in the hallways for about 30sec at a time, but she seems to be warming up to me. Going out of her way to say hi, and so on. Yesterday, I ran into her and the boyfriend at lunch. They were talking to another mutual friend and I sat down and started making wise cracks, and Cindy just about lost it. Totally over laughing at my jokes, and she got way louder and visibly more excited as we were talking. I was kind of taken a back a little, and tried to include the boyfriend in the conversation. It was nearly manic behavior on her part. They had to take off soon afterwards.
Damn my quick wits, and devilishly handsome fatman looks.
These sorts of things happened to me before AM, I just thought I'd relate them since they're happening during Stage 2.
I have much much deeper thoughts, and genius insights but I've got post seminar brain so you'll have to excuse me whilst I stare off into the space of this darkened room and let the drool puddle on the floor as it drips from my slack jaw...
1-Last week walking to school my friend "Kim" runs up to me and bumps into me- basically shoulder checks me. Lots of friendly talk and kino ensue before our morning class. Kim's a Korean student at my school, a very cute girl and we've always flirted but in our first semester she started dating a Korean guy so I just let things simmer on the back burner. Kim is fairly traditional, so she prefers to date a Korean guy... or so I thought. She's always been responsive to my flirting, but she's never been this physically aggressive before.
Dating a fellow classmate is tricky at this school. We're a professional school, and I've narrowly avoided sexual harrasment BS so far. (Not that I'm doing anything beyond the bounds of polite society, but you pack a 10/1 female to male student ratio, which a fair number of those being menopausal man haters...and well, you gotta watch your ass. I've watched other guys targeted it ain't pretty.) Combined with the cultural issues, it's not time to make a move.
2-At an all weekend seminar this weekend. My former clinical intern who I followed was there, and completely snubbed me in front of a large group (all women of course.) My only interest in her as a person is professional, and polite acquaintance. I am fairly friendly by nature, but dissing me is one of those things that used to make me react like a venomous dick. Not so much the public attempt at shaming, it's more the presumption that another human being's opinion or a group of human's opinions means a good goddamn thing to me. It's the sort of thing that used to send me into a black black poisonous rage. Well, I've had to swallow a lot of that crap at this school so far. There's too much money involved to mess around going all rage-a-holic, and so on. My reaction this time was just a "huh, okay I'll go talk to the people who actually want to talk to me." And that was that emotionally for me. Today she was civil, and the important folks that she dissed me in front of were more than happy to talk to me.
3-Yesterday at lunch I ran into "her". So I'm a little old and jaded to be getting schoolboy crushes plus my school is filled beautiful intelligent neurotic women, but "Cindy" makes my eyes cross. We haven't been on the same schedule since semester 1, and I only recently started seeing her around school again last semester. Cindy's got a "serious boyfriend" too. (They all do dammit.) I just recently found out that he's also a student here. That would complicate things a bit....Anyway, we only talk in the hallways for about 30sec at a time, but she seems to be warming up to me. Going out of her way to say hi, and so on. Yesterday, I ran into her and the boyfriend at lunch. They were talking to another mutual friend and I sat down and started making wise cracks, and Cindy just about lost it. Totally over laughing at my jokes, and she got way louder and visibly more excited as we were talking. I was kind of taken a back a little, and tried to include the boyfriend in the conversation. It was nearly manic behavior on her part. They had to take off soon afterwards.
Damn my quick wits, and devilishly handsome fatman looks.
These sorts of things happened to me before AM, I just thought I'd relate them since they're happening during Stage 2.
I have much much deeper thoughts, and genius insights but I've got post seminar brain so you'll have to excuse me whilst I stare off into the space of this darkened room and let the drool puddle on the floor as it drips from my slack jaw...
