Jennie's Journal with Emotional Pain Relief and Healing Aid

[jennielee]

I got stuck thinking today and sidetracked. I realized that the timing of him coming back into my life and his exit from my life was tied exactly with saturns visit with him. ( there was a 2 degree difference between the day he came and the day he left in saturns position. Likely 1 degree if you count from the day the choice to leave was made.) I find a little comfort in this. The pain im feeling is all ripples of things going wrong for him. Its like he was hit by a bus and i just happened to be handcuffed to him at the time. I realized that as bad as this feels for me, its going to be so much worse for him. In light of that i decided that whatever losses were as a result of him.that i would simply accept it as my own. Its not the smartest choice financially, but i strive to help people not harm them. So in my wanting to make the world a better place i will not hurt him by making him pay for the losses he caused, and that i will continue to support him and his company. I can already see he messed up the choice he was supposed to make. So somewhere down the road he will face it again. Maybe with me, mayve with someone else. Anyway now that thats out of the way its time to move on to the next item in my list. Figuring out what i can do to make the world a better place (and make money to pay my bills too lol)