07-24-2021, 10:38 AM
Day 67/180 OFF #2- Saturday 24 July - part 2
3) as previously stated, I started off with less anxiety/fear but as the day went on and I kept thinking about doing some academic work of any kind the fear grew. I then tried to do just whatever I could and managed to do about 20mins solid work with around 1hour in total of work done in some way, which is great considering starting was difficult and the hardest part. That being said I then wasn't able to continue after.
Realization is that fear didn't allow me to get into a flow. It's a constant tug, that stops you from feeling normal. It is there as you trying to stay focused and disciplined.
Anyway that was that and tomorrow I start hybrid at 4 loops and cannot wait!! - from past experience I'm more likely to go with Trickling Stream, but will know better later tonight for sure.
3) as previously stated, I started off with less anxiety/fear but as the day went on and I kept thinking about doing some academic work of any kind the fear grew. I then tried to do just whatever I could and managed to do about 20mins solid work with around 1hour in total of work done in some way, which is great considering starting was difficult and the hardest part. That being said I then wasn't able to continue after.
Realization is that fear didn't allow me to get into a flow. It's a constant tug, that stops you from feeling normal. It is there as you trying to stay focused and disciplined.
Anyway that was that and tomorrow I start hybrid at 4 loops and cannot wait!! - from past experience I'm more likely to go with Trickling Stream, but will know better later tonight for sure.
OF3 5.75.7G 13/15Vol
1L-2O/3OF; (1L-2/2 5/6); (2L 19/6); (3L 27/6); (4L 9/7); (H4L 25/7)
W 19 May
MLS 5.5G: ≈70days x2, IYGSH: 54, E2: 78+48, DMSI 3.2: 56 & 22, UMOP1: 57+UMOP2: 33 = 90+10 US v12/15=100, OF: 45, OF2: 56days
1L-2O/3OF; (1L-2/2 5/6); (2L 19/6); (3L 27/6); (4L 9/7); (H4L 25/7)
W 19 May
MLS 5.5G: ≈70days x2, IYGSH: 54, E2: 78+48, DMSI 3.2: 56 & 22, UMOP1: 57+UMOP2: 33 = 90+10 US v12/15=100, OF: 45, OF2: 56days
