Day 43/180 OFF #2- Wed 30 June
So today is 2nd day off, another day of not listening so what happened....
1) Got to bed early around 1am (early for me) and yet didnt want to sleep until 3.34am which is when I drifted off.
2) I woke at 8am and was pleased but 30seconds later I fell asleep again.
3) I finally woke at 11am, later than I had hoped and planned. I then went online on my phone as I tried to wake up. I wasted alot of time both online and then on a long phone call.
However at 1 point I recall scrolling through a website and then getting some thoughts about the past and things that I missed out on and the future and the present and got sad and then a little teary.... eye got wetter than normal but no tear came out so basically I got emotional.
This is odd and totally random and I composed myself quickly and easily. I dont know if this was the sub but it was sudden and sponatenous.
4) After that had the phone call etc and felt back to normal again.
5) time is 2.39pm not feeling hungry for breakfast or lunch or any food so waiting until I do and thought id come on update my journal for now.
6) Im not really looking forward to playing the sub tomorrow. Not excited by it. This could be resistance. I think sticking to 3 loops for a while before considering increasing the intensity makes sense however the days off are needed. I think in the past trying to stick to a heavy schedule of sub listening lead to stress for me and this 2 days off and 2 days on seems to be managable but since 3 loops ive not clearly felt as chilled as usual.
So today is 2nd day off, another day of not listening so what happened....
1) Got to bed early around 1am (early for me) and yet didnt want to sleep until 3.34am which is when I drifted off.
2) I woke at 8am and was pleased but 30seconds later I fell asleep again.
3) I finally woke at 11am, later than I had hoped and planned. I then went online on my phone as I tried to wake up. I wasted alot of time both online and then on a long phone call.
However at 1 point I recall scrolling through a website and then getting some thoughts about the past and things that I missed out on and the future and the present and got sad and then a little teary.... eye got wetter than normal but no tear came out so basically I got emotional.
This is odd and totally random and I composed myself quickly and easily. I dont know if this was the sub but it was sudden and sponatenous.
4) After that had the phone call etc and felt back to normal again.
5) time is 2.39pm not feeling hungry for breakfast or lunch or any food so waiting until I do and thought id come on update my journal for now.
6) Im not really looking forward to playing the sub tomorrow. Not excited by it. This could be resistance. I think sticking to 3 loops for a while before considering increasing the intensity makes sense however the days off are needed. I think in the past trying to stick to a heavy schedule of sub listening lead to stress for me and this 2 days off and 2 days on seems to be managable but since 3 loops ive not clearly felt as chilled as usual.
OF3 5.75.7G 13/15Vol
1L-2O/3OF; (1L-2/2 5/6); (2L 19/6); (3L 27/6); (4L 9/7); (H4L 25/7)
W 19 May
MLS 5.5G: ≈70days x2, IYGSH: 54, E2: 78+48, DMSI 3.2: 56 & 22, UMOP1: 57+UMOP2: 33 = 90+10 US v12/15=100, OF: 45, OF2: 56days
1L-2O/3OF; (1L-2/2 5/6); (2L 19/6); (3L 27/6); (4L 9/7); (H4L 25/7)
W 19 May
MLS 5.5G: ≈70days x2, IYGSH: 54, E2: 78+48, DMSI 3.2: 56 & 22, UMOP1: 57+UMOP2: 33 = 90+10 US v12/15=100, OF: 45, OF2: 56days
