**Jake's Overcoming Fear v.3 5.75.7G Journal**

[Jake2015]

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Day 14 OFF - June 1 - OFF #2 - Part 2

So the rest of the day has been negative for me.

After I posted my previous journal I was fine then a uni friend contacted me, asking to borrow some money and his reason being he wants to buy some shares. I know little about shares and how to even trade in them. Yet he was aware and this bothered me as if I should know to.

Anyway he then helped me to download a kind of bank account app and this app wanted all my private details such as name and address and even then my form of id such as driving licence.

I felt very uncomfortable and anxious but went ahead and then it wanted a live selfie of myself something im not comfortable with either because I am not confident of how I look any more or insecure. Anyway so I did that and then had to transfer some money from my normal bank account to this app to get it started and by mistake rather than doing the minimum amount I did doubt that amount. That didnt break my bank balance but it wasnt what I wanted.

Now since doing all the above its still in the process of verifing me and clearly it wont happen any time soon but maybe 24hours. This itself made me feel concerned as to whether this was legit at all but my friend and his friends are all using this app so I do trust them.

Then the price of the share rose a small amount more than I was willing or wanting to pay and so that bothered me too.

I realised that for hours and hours later I was filled with all these negative emotions from anxiety mostly so basically a form and level of fear.

It doesnt disappear UNTIL I ate which made me realise that eating does indeed get called a comforter for a reason.

I didnt like this feeling today and felt it was happening for too long. Clearly the sub has alot to do for me.

And yes I have been tired today and feeling lazy too. More tired and restless than yesterday actually.