**Jake's Overcoming Fear v.3 5.75.7G Journal**

[Jake2015]

3/180 days

Day 3 off - Fri 21 May

So day off today. Its been a crazy one as I didnt sleep due to having 2 University webinars to attend online.

1 was at 6.30am and the other was at 8.30am. Since I was awake and had updated this journal around 4am I stayed awake all night.

Around 9.30am the webinars finished and I fell asleep...heavy because by now my body and eyes had to give in to the sleep.

I woke around 2.30pm, usual time for me when in UK, getting 6hours on average as usual (so sleep cycle is same whether on this sub or not) however I woke extremely tired as if I had woken up during deep sleep suddenly (which is a possibly what happened ofcourse).

All day ive been feeling either tired, sleepy or mild headaches now and again. Now and again because other times I felt fine too but today was more of these symptoms or perhaps more prevalent and deeper than usual days.

These can all be put down to the sub or can be to the fact that this 1 day was an extreme day due to the webinars and staying awake all night thus resulting in a messed up energy level today.

I cannot be sure for certain but i dont feel as stressed today as I did yesterday and didnt feel fear today or anything fearful. On the contrary I think it was this morning I did a quick google search for a topic I know I need to study myself for myself when I return back to uni as its something I need to know going into the job market and I felt no real fear or stress around it.

Again I cannot be sure if this is the sub or its me but im hoping that as I continue to provide data that if this sub is indeed working and I am executing that it becomes obvious to me as so far I cannot be certain.

Ive been here before with subs where initially I or others have felt something only for (in my case) it to fade away to nothing if ever there was anything to begin with (usually hasnt been for me).

Im not overthinking this im just providing data but erring on caution before I get excited or demotivated.

For now im just playing and going with the flow.

I cant remember anything else to add at this stage.

so another 2 days of no listening to commence but hope this data helps Shannon and us all.

addendum:

Ok shit as usual as soon as I write and post up then things eventually come into my mind to add back to the journal.

So today I did have a fearful thought. I recall a moment when in my 20s I worked and I felt lost. I had no idea what I was doing at work, not a clue how others around me were getting results (this was in sales) and I wasnt. I recall feeling as if I had learnt nothing and knew nothing at all.

I felt like this during my education days as a teen/adult and I feel it now as someone that is a mature student at uni.

This fear then made me think about how will i be when I finally graduate and start working again and I know nothing at all. I will go in and others will be walking past me and around me and I will be there in the centre feeling lost and unsure. Then all these years of studying gone to waste.

So yes today there was this fearful thought. It wasnt a long thought nor a long lingering thought but it was still a thought that I had and sharing. I dont know if I felt anxious due to it or not as I cant remember but it was enough to come into my mind now to add here as data.