JAKE'S IYGSH 4G JOURNAL

[Jake2015]

Procrastination, Fear and Avoidance.

Whereas yesterday I did some work which I forgot to mention, I did around 2hours yesterday I today have done none.

Whereas the 2hours were done due to fear of the approaching deadline for the exam....today there is fear and no action.

The fear is a feeling inside that results in inactivity.

Today I realised while wasting time with a friend who is a fellow procrastinator, that we both plan and dream of what we will do in the future, such as in the summer and then in our 3rd year, how we will do this and that, but in actuality we procrastinate today and we will tomorrow.

The biggest dream I have is that MLS 5.5G comes out, I start it and it not only kicks my procrastination to the ground but motivates me to study and not only motivates me but gives me hope and positivity and not only hope and positivity but gives me a memory where I can read far few times and remember far more and far longer....all while studying with intense focus and concentration.

My issues isn't studying its starting.

Don't move me and I will stay, move me and I will not stop...this is what I am, not Jake1015 but more like Super Inertia haha

somebody move me or as the mask would say....

Day 5 update continued....

I think on deeper level we all this that MLS-5.5G will solve all our issues related to studies, memory, focus, procrastination and motivation. I am not saying that it won't. But dreaming about MLS-5.5G only signifies that how badly you want to improve your cognitive issues. I had those same dreams when I was on my MHS-5.5G journey. It was at the end of 3-4 week that I started having dreams related to MLS-5.5G and Shannon telling me to use it.. . After day I started having other dream in which I started taking supplements to fix my brain and dreams in which I was productive and good student in school (which I never was as I was a looser due to ADHD).

Thing is that after I few days I realised that I really have to do something to fix my brain and can't be sitting on my ass and expect MLS-5.5G to fix all of my issues... Right now I am on OF-5G and I seriously don't care if if MLS-5.5G comes out or not. Subconsciously I don't wanna use MLS-5.5G right now cause with fear out of the window I see that I have nothing to loose as I have already lost what I could that is Time..But consciously I know MLS-5.5G can fix my issues..
What I am trying to say is that I seriously don't want to depend on anything.. People, subs etc.. All I wanna do is depend on myself. It's okay to ask for help but to depend on someone or something will only make you a weak person..

It's okay to use MLS-5.5G to help you fix ur issues but don't depend on it. How can u expect to grow and become independent if u keep depending on something and someone?

Right now I am trying to fix my focus issues, memory issues and procrastination issues all by myself. Won't say it's will fix all of it but it's just a start.

I think I understand but that isn't the purpose of Subs and all mental programming.

My understanding is that we take responsibility by trying to change ourselves. We then do this by finding out why we do what we do and all self help literature stems from mental programming. We think therefore we do.

This thinking is subconscious scripting. We must therefore change this dialogue. It isn't easy and the ways I'm aware of such as hypnosis and visualisation and self affirmations are all there to try and change you eventually but take time for some and a lot of time for others.

This is also effort, even hypnosis is an effort for some. If there was a way to bypass the gate keeper i.e. our conscious mind and allow us to pour in posititive suggestions into our subconscious then we can change and become better. This is the purpose of subliminals.

I therefore don't see it as dependent but hopeful reliance on a tool that can change what or that which we all struggle to change and improve ourselves.

Im finding it a struggle to change my behaviour. Its clearly a behaviour of procrastination that has got worse over the years and has stemmed from childhood at some point in my life.

The current procrastination I have could very well be due to the healing slowly change of E2 but theres no guarantee it is that.

I have no choice but to therefore rely on these subs and hope that they make the change upon me.

I haven't had the subs work on me so far, I believe this is either due to myself not giving them a chance, and by chance I believe 3 months minimum is needed to evaluate or that I'm not listening to them properly (I believe I am, because I've asked so many on here time and time again to help me on this) and therefore the only other conclusion is that I may be a resistor.

Shannon has said resistance doesn't mean it impossible but clearly I'm taking time to change, and time is needed.

I am also desperate to change, because I am at uni and have exams which must be passed otherwise I'm going to screw up my life even more.

I guess we are all here depending on these subs, and believe me if it was so easy to by pass my emotions and feelings to do what I must do then I wouldnt be here at all.

I also came here because these subs can be played in silence thus not interfering with my life and this makes them powerful tools.

I would love like all here to cleanse my inner garbage and be reborn a new but so far I don't think the subs are able to do this for anyone as I havent met anyone here that has used the subs and continued to grow.

I hope that 6G achieves this but I therefore don't see 6G being released for a few more years yet as Shannon has said that 6G means the end of the line for development and development must mean the goal of bypassing resistance and finally achieving what the subs intend to.

So many here seem to not get the full listed goals that the various subs purpose to help you achieve and thats why its paramount that 6G achieves this.

Until then I have no other choice, because there is no other way for me to achieve my goal easily.

Hope that made sense lol