Day 47 Update - - - - MAJOR PROCRASTINATION
Okay so I woke up today around lets say 10am
I didn't get out of bed though until 2pm - - - why?
I just stayed in bed, went to the bathroom, came back stayed either laid down or sat up on my phone, jumping from website to website wasting time. Not getting any rejuvenation from staying in bed or benefit except I had no urge to get up.
Today and this weekend I wanted to and hoped to focus on a project I have to hand in on thurday. I have time for this yet I have procrastinated and procrastinated up until now.
I got out of bed with the plan of heating from left over food but after speaking to my mum who suggested I make some fried eggs I went with that plan and made a nice breakfast, really slow and relaxed - Im guessing I'm procrastinating this way too.
So my whole focus seems to be on avoiding work, avoiding deadlines and so I can confirm that E2 has clearned anything on this side of my psyche.
Has it cleared anything to give me any results that I can confirm, in all honesty none.
My dreams well I've only had 1 night of 2 nightmares, since and around them I've had no dreams.
Ive no idea what E2 is clearing but I'm completely unsure as to any beneficial changes occurring in my life.
I went and got a temporary tattoo on my neck yesterday, something I've been wanting to get for a couple of months but thought I would do it when I have the time after exams but hey why not procrastinate on the main stuff and go get a tattoo so I did, temporary one though that will last only 2weeks approx.
I told the girl in the show that she was beautiful and yes I was horny because I havent fapped in 3weeks now. She told me she was married for 5 years, and tbh I didn't really care, I just wanted to f$*k her however I didn't take it further and neither did she lol so I took the rejection and left with my new tattoo.
I then went and got my hair cut yesterday.
So thats the only logical difference otherwise there has been none.
the time is now 4.24pm and I'm still sat in my boxers in my living room, after having had breakfast and wasting time on youtube, wondering if I should have a cup of coffee or tea and a dessert and yes I shall
I then hope to hit the showers etc and then to listen to masked via earphones, probably trickling stream and hope that it f$cking works on me.
thanks for reading
oh and the last few days, the other way I have been procrastinating is by looking at online adverts for escorts in my european town/area. I am browsing and wasting time, not calling, not throwing money at them just looking at adverts and profiles. I only stopped fapping cos I suddenly saw guys here talking of its benefit and then going online and seeing there is this community and movement on youtube but tbh I don't feel my mantool has benefited in size or strength or myself in energy or anything lol
Okay so I woke up today around lets say 10am
I didn't get out of bed though until 2pm - - - why?
I just stayed in bed, went to the bathroom, came back stayed either laid down or sat up on my phone, jumping from website to website wasting time. Not getting any rejuvenation from staying in bed or benefit except I had no urge to get up.
Today and this weekend I wanted to and hoped to focus on a project I have to hand in on thurday. I have time for this yet I have procrastinated and procrastinated up until now.
I got out of bed with the plan of heating from left over food but after speaking to my mum who suggested I make some fried eggs I went with that plan and made a nice breakfast, really slow and relaxed - Im guessing I'm procrastinating this way too.
So my whole focus seems to be on avoiding work, avoiding deadlines and so I can confirm that E2 has clearned anything on this side of my psyche.
Has it cleared anything to give me any results that I can confirm, in all honesty none.
My dreams well I've only had 1 night of 2 nightmares, since and around them I've had no dreams.
Ive no idea what E2 is clearing but I'm completely unsure as to any beneficial changes occurring in my life.
I went and got a temporary tattoo on my neck yesterday, something I've been wanting to get for a couple of months but thought I would do it when I have the time after exams but hey why not procrastinate on the main stuff and go get a tattoo so I did, temporary one though that will last only 2weeks approx.
I told the girl in the show that she was beautiful and yes I was horny because I havent fapped in 3weeks now. She told me she was married for 5 years, and tbh I didn't really care, I just wanted to f$*k her however I didn't take it further and neither did she lol so I took the rejection and left with my new tattoo.
I then went and got my hair cut yesterday.
So thats the only logical difference otherwise there has been none.
the time is now 4.24pm and I'm still sat in my boxers in my living room, after having had breakfast and wasting time on youtube, wondering if I should have a cup of coffee or tea and a dessert and yes I shall
I then hope to hit the showers etc and then to listen to masked via earphones, probably trickling stream and hope that it f$cking works on me.
thanks for reading
oh and the last few days, the other way I have been procrastinating is by looking at online adverts for escorts in my european town/area. I am browsing and wasting time, not calling, not throwing money at them just looking at adverts and profiles. I only stopped fapping cos I suddenly saw guys here talking of its benefit and then going online and seeing there is this community and movement on youtube but tbh I don't feel my mantool has benefited in size or strength or myself in energy or anything lol
OF3 5.75.7G 13/15Vol
1L-2O/3OF; (1L-2/2 5/6); (2L 19/6); (3L 27/6); (4L 9/7); (H4L 25/7)
W 19 May
MLS 5.5G: ≈70days x2, IYGSH: 54, E2: 78+48, DMSI 3.2: 56 & 22, UMOP1: 57+UMOP2: 33 = 90+10 US v12/15=100, OF: 45, OF2: 56days
1L-2O/3OF; (1L-2/2 5/6); (2L 19/6); (3L 27/6); (4L 9/7); (H4L 25/7)
W 19 May
MLS 5.5G: ≈70days x2, IYGSH: 54, E2: 78+48, DMSI 3.2: 56 & 22, UMOP1: 57+UMOP2: 33 = 90+10 US v12/15=100, OF: 45, OF2: 56days