Ivaylo's BASE 2.0 Journal

[Ivaylo]

Visited my parents today and involuntarily got exposed to EPRHA 2.0 for about 10-15 minutes before I told them to turn the player off. Well, that was enough to have me feel as if I was walking on air for a few hours, but it also fried my brain a little bit. The latter part was probably because I was listening to BASE until less than an hour earlier.

Highly, highly tempted to let go of BASE while in the middle of stage 5, but I'll persist.

[Ivaylo]

Beta version of the front-end design is about 75% ready. Back-end work begins today while I sort out the remaining front-end details. At this pace, it will probably take about a month to do almost everything, except the actual brainwave entrainment part.

I'm hoping to be able to squeeze most of that within a week, since it's three of us working on it. It's not going to be production ready, but it will *seem* like a fully-working prototype. (with BWE mp3s in the background instead of real-time generated sounds)

I expect to hear from my likely future consultant any day now and once I do, (and the new prototype is looking good) I'm off talking to investors.

[Ivaylo]

Time and time again I am convinced of the power of what NLP calls break states. Massive time and energy-saving breakthroughs happen so often when I break state that it makes me wonder how to harness that power without being even more ADD/ADHD than I already am. The key word seems to be discipline.

Anyway, I'm saying all this because my latest break state made me realize how I can finish my prototype in... well, possibly tomorrow, most likely by the day after that. Really a quantum leap from my previous way of thinking. Which makes me aware that I should dare to aim much, much higher than I usually do. Quantum leaps don't really care about height, as far as I can tell.

[Ivaylo]

My curiosity got the best of me and I tried my mother's copy of EPRHA 2.0 for 2 hours just to see if I should consider buying it for myself later on.

Well, the difference compared to BASE was staggering. BASE is social, confident and ambitious, while on EPRHA I felt introverted, emotional and well, quite a bit directionless. It seems that it would definitely require a fair bit of maturity to choose this as your natural state for 3-6 months instead of any of the six-stagers.

Still, I'd most likely use it for at least 3 months, since if I don't, it's likely that I'll regret it later.

[heavysm]

My curiosity got the best of me and I tried my mother's copy of EPRHA 2.0 for 2 hours just to see if I should consider buying it for myself later on.

Well, the difference compared to BASE was staggering. BASE is social, confident and ambitious, while on EPRHA I felt introverted, emotional and well, quite a bit directionless. It seems that it would definitely require a fair bit of maturity to choose this as your natural state for 3-6 months instead of any of the six-stagers.

Still, I'd most likely use it for at least 3 months, since if I don't, it's likely that I'll regret it later.

This is curious because my run with E 2 now is sort of unveiling the real me. I'm procrastinating slightly less, I'm more social and a lot of things are opening up to me that were sort of closed off while on BASE. I feel peaceful in a confident sort of way like everything will be okay. If the past few days are any indication, things will be far better than okay pretty soon.

In a way on E 2 the "how" of some of my plans are becoming clear. I know "what" i wanted to do while using BASE, but E 2 is kind of revealing the different paths I have. I think it's because I'm more emotionally in control now, but who knows.

It would be interesting to see how E 2 affects you.

[Benjamin]

Interesting comparision. Either it was working on something so you temporarily felt more emotional or my other thought is since it helps you do what you need to do to heal specifically for you.. for one person it may be to be around people less, for others it may be to become more social again.

Shannon can confirm but that's my thought.

[Ivaylo]

My curiosity got the best of me and I tried my mother's copy of EPRHA 2.0 for 2 hours just to see if I should consider buying it for myself later on.

Well, the difference compared to BASE was staggering. BASE is social, confident and ambitious, while on EPRHA I felt introverted, emotional and well, quite a bit directionless. It seems that it would definitely require a fair bit of maturity to choose this as your natural state for 3-6 months instead of any of the six-stagers.

Still, I'd most likely use it for at least 3 months, since if I don't, it's likely that I'll regret it later.

This is curious because my run with E 2 now is sort of unveiling the real me. I'm procrastinating slightly less, I'm more social and a lot of things are opening up to me that were sort of closed off while on BASE. I feel peaceful in a confident sort of way like everything will be okay. If the past few days are any indication, things will be far better than okay pretty soon.

In a way on E 2 the "how" of some of my plans are becoming clear. I know "what" i wanted to do while using BASE, but E 2 is kind of revealing the different paths I have. I think it's because I'm more emotionally in control now, but who knows.

It would be interesting to see how E 2 affects you.

Actually, I can relate to what you described a lot. At least that was my experience the *next* day, instead of while I was listening. Maybe because when I gave it a listen it was already after 9.30PM, but I didn't think I was too tired. On second thought, maybe I was.

I can definitely see it working in such a way as you mentioned in the long run. It just might mean generating different behaviors/states for me to get there. Pretty cool.

Interesting comparision. Either it was working on something so you temporarily felt more emotional or my other thought is since it helps you do what you need to do to heal specifically for you.. for one person it may be to be around people less, for others it may be to become more social again.

Shannon can confirm but that's my thought.

Both of you hit the nail right on the head, I think. It seems to depend on the type of character you are (and your flaws). I tend to keep my attention focused outward for too long, so I probably have some emotional/mental junk about being introverted or something.

I try to make a habit out of having some introspection, and when I actually do I'm much better at everything, but I don't remember to do it as often as I should. E2 on the other hand did exactly that, did it on a deeper level than I could do consciously and did it effortlessly (with minimal resistance on my part).

I can't get as excited about that as I can about AOSI, but it's definitely an awesome sub and it will pay off in the long run. Judging from the glipse I got, the "love flooding" part could be pretty interesting, though.

[Ivaylo]

After some introspection I became aware that I was actually resisting EPRHA 2.0 during the two hours I was running it. On the next day after I ran it, I was perfectly content executing the instructions.

I also became aware how much stronger this one is. I ran EPRHA 1.0 for five months before BASE and I was very "successful" at resisting it most of the time. My perception is that I won't be able to resist E2 for more than a few days of consistent use and then... walls will have to start crumbling down.

The more I reflect on the experience, the more excited I get about it.


Oh, and by the way... as I was reading AOSI journals, I also became aware that often I'd experience something like this with girls after doing some energy healing art that I practice. However, my energy field in such instances is probably more loving rather than purely sexual... and I've still observed it produce some incredibly obvious IOIs. I'm officially becoming one of the guys, who feel like a kid in a candy store here lately.

[DisneylandUSA]

Yes, We are all feeling like we are at a Candy store with all the new versions of 5.5G coming out

[Ivaylo]

Yes, We are all feeling like we are at a Candy store with all the new versions of 5.5G coming out

That's for sure.

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Over the last few days (which funnily enough coincides with those two hours of E2 I did) I had some fundamental shifts in how I perceive myself, my life, my values and my goals. I can't know for sure if those two hours did this magic. They might have only managed to shake things up a bit, leaving it up to me to do the rest.

Anyway, some realizations:

1. The more money I charge people as a freelancer, the better feedback I receive. I made the mistake of accepting less money from a client who was very pleasant to work with, but had lower budget than I would normally accept.
Her feedback at the end - "Ivaylo is lovely to work with. It was a pleasure." And she rewrote key parts of my copy so it doesn't sell while giving me 4 out of 5 for "Quality of Work". Makes me sound like a "nice guy" and the fun fact is that I actually was that guy. No. More.

2. I've had my fun trying to work the system and get financing and do as "normal" entrepreneurs do around here. It was some desire to fit in (Tertiary extroverted feeling from MBTI), which I'll have to manage more effectively from this point on.
Anyway, turns out it's rarely fun at all. I'm still going to give some other investors a chance, but honestly I don't really care. I'm making the money and then financing what I want according to my vision, without trying to satisfy narrow-minded know-it-alls. I knew better all along, but... well, damn Fe function.

3. I already know what would be a successful business for me, and copywriting will play a part in it. I avoided thinking about it because I used to see it as too practical, predictable and boring. Now I see it as a way to contribute value, while earning money so I can contribute even more value.

All in all, can't wait to start EPRHA 2.0 full time. Not that I'm waiting, my hand are actually quite full now that I have some realistic vision that's true to myself. Shannon said that EPRHA 2.0 can unlock previous programming that has been unexpressed because of resistance, so I'm sticking with BASE 2.1 till I'm finished.

[Ivaylo]

Last day of stage 5 today. I'm literally counting the days until I'm done with BASE. Seems like I'll start on E2 around the end of July.

I received a confirmation from the neurophysiologist I contacted that he's ready to get on board as a consultant, and we've scheduled a meeting around the end of this month to discuss the finer details, as he put it.

Honestly, the startup is far from my primary concern, but this is a great development. The kinda "selfish, but not really" angle is that if I manage to seal a deal with an investor (which this consultant's academic reputation will help me do), I'll basically get to have experience in managing a team of (experienced) programmers without having to pay them out of my pocket.

This will be invaluable to my future business. Of course, the only way to learn how to do that is to give 110% of myself throughout the whole thing and aim for success, so I'm still keeping my integrity. I just have a backup plan in case my kinda idealistic one doesn't pan out. It will be a dream come true if it does, though.

[Ivaylo]

Stage 6, Day 5

I've been clearing huge loads of anger over the past week or two on a variety of seemingly unrelated topics. Now I feel like I've lost my edge, my drive to achieve. That drive has always been ebbing and flowing for me, which tells me it really was the anger this whole time, and now I can't seem to be able to generate it at all.

Hopefully, a new and deeper way to motivate myself will come up soon and it will be more sustainable and harmonious. Right now I feel as if I'm completely out of fuel, which will only force me to dig deeper for it.

[ncbeareatingman]

I can totally relate Ivaylo...to the clearings and being de-motivated,and having to replace such intenisites with a new yet to known motivation...a new burn desire-fire.... but what? yeap an related. been on E2 for a month now,life changing. but wanna say taht anger has some fear laced in thier and that for me was the remover of the strong survival motus operandi..... now its off to learn how to THRIVE not just survive and move on from there. all the best. great post and excellent points. Keith.

[Ivaylo]

I can totally relate to your points too, Keith. Thanks for confirming my experience with yours!

Over the last week, a lot of activities (and people) I thought I enjoyed now seem silly to me. At least some of them I'm sure are not silly at all, but my approach to them doesn't make sense to me anymore.

There's also this increasingly obvious distinction for me, which is between assertiveness and aggressiveness. In my experience, with anger I can push people around, but sadly - without achieving anything significant at all. Being assertive though - it's like I just stand there and I force people to show me their cards a little more each instant - this helps me make better-informed decisions and own them as well.