INTJ on roids - Maximum Learning Speed 5.5G Journal

[Raikahoken]

The required sleep for MLS is nothing like DMSI, i feel like i could sleep 14 hours and it would still not be enough. The dreams are very intense and emotional. Again nothing like dmsi. Not much hunger although.

PS: The girl im seeing has been acting very cold ever since i stopped using dmsi. So i ended things with her, she basically treats me as if im one of her friends. Denying any sexual advances. When i told that we need to end things she said: I still like you, nobody understands me better than you but its not like before. She is infj.

I dont really feel much for her, other than feelings of ego. I expected she would be sad if end the relationship but seeing how she didnt care i felt hurt. Somewhat!

So yeah i miss dmsi xD

Hi bro Illumi. I feel you man. My ex was also an INFJ. And I am also an INTJ like you. The connection is really intense at first but I did feel that she was extremely closed off emotionally. And yeah it does get really scary how cold they can be when they don't care for you anymore. Like, how can someone who used to love you a lot just suddenly shut you out so completely. You might be feeling hurt right now and it's ok, take your time. The best cure is to start falling in love with your own life and passions again. The world is full of women who will satisfy you much better than her.

And I agree on the sleepiness of MLS. I can't wake up before 10am these days. I just can't!!

[Illumi]

The required sleep for MLS is nothing like DMSI, i feel like i could sleep 14 hours and it would still not be enough. The dreams are very intense and emotional. Again nothing like dmsi. Not much hunger although.

PS: The girl im seeing has been acting very cold ever since i stopped using dmsi. So i ended things with her, she basically treats me as if im one of her friends. Denying any sexual advances. When i told that we need to end things she said: I still like you, nobody understands me better than you but its not like before. She is infj.

I dont really feel much for her, other than feelings of ego. I expected she would be sad if end the relationship but seeing how she didnt care i felt hurt. Somewhat!

So yeah i miss dmsi xD

Hi bro Illumi. I feel you man. My ex was also an INFJ. And I am also an INTJ like you. The connection is really intense at first but I did feel that she was extremely closed off emotionally. And yeah it does get really scary how cold they can be when they don't care for you anymore. Like, how can someone who used to love you a lot just suddenly shut you out so completely. You might be feeling hurt right now and it's ok, take your time. The best cure is to start falling in love with your own life and passions again. The world is full of women who will satisfy you much better than her.

And I agree on the sleepiness of MLS. I can't wake up before 10am these days. I just can't!!

Its exactly as you described it, INFJ chicks are a scorpion in nature but act as if they like gods gift to mankind with their compassion, empathy and understanding.

[Ars0n1sT]

The need for sleep is intense man. 30 minute nap for lunch break. 1 to 3 hour nap after work. 8 hours of sleep at night. zomg.

[Illumi]

This just sucks... three days later and now she posts a pic on snapchat of some dude saying " my heart <3 " how can someone be so cold? My fault for being an idiot. For letting her come too close! Godammit aghh im feeling like a b1tch right now.

[Raikahoken]

This just sucks... three days later and now she posts a pic on snapchat of some dude saying " my heart <3 " how can someone be so cold? My fault for being an idiot. For letting her come too close! Godammit aghh im feeling like a b1tch right now.

Let it go bro. I know your INTJ brain is trying to think of the why and how you can get her back, but just let it go. It will do you no good. She's useless to you now. Focus on your good life vision.

[Illumi]

This just sucks... three days later and now she posts a pic on snapchat of some dude saying " my heart <3 " how can someone be so cold? My fault for being an idiot. For letting her come too close! Godammit aghh im feeling like a b1tch right now.

Let it go bro. I know your INTJ brain is trying to think of the why and how you can get her back, but just let it go. It will do you no good. She's useless to you now. Focus on your good life vision.

Ill try man, it aint easy. I feel like i could break st any moment. Still i ended it like a man on my own terms. Life goes on

[Shannon]

Just think about it this way. A woman who can do that to you, can and will do it to every other man she gets with. She's not a prize. Getting away from her, that's the prize. You need to find a way to know when you're dealing with such a woman, though, or else you're going to find you don't trust any woman.

[Kol]

Talking about synchronicity... Heck yes on what Shannon said.

[Illumi]

Thanks you everyone! whatever happens ill survive and take the lesson out of it.

[Illumi]

Just think about it this way. A woman who can do that to you, can and will do it to every other man she gets with. She's not a prize. Getting away from her, that's the prize. You need to find a way to know when you're dealing with such a woman, though, or else you're going to find you don't trust any woman.

Ironically i think i know that way. She and my mom are both infj and i knew they were very similar even before i really understood the mbti types.

[Illumi]

My reading and comprehension speed have definitly incresed alot. Still sleeping alot more than usual, mild resistance but nothing that can't be handled

[Illumi]

Its been a while since i've last updated. Truth be told not much has changed except so much have changed i have no clue where to start. First thing is that i feel like im slowly returning to my roots, and that is reading complex books, theories on youtube especially this one called " Imagining the 10th dimention " very intresting. Then i've noticed something, almost no body is like me. I feel a kick when i engage my brain in such way, about such topics yet almost no one thinks or talks about stuff like that. Since AM6 and DMSI i have been engaging all out in social interactions almost to the point of being obnoxious. Since this kills two birds with one stone, first because i moved to Sweden 6 years ago i want to further extend my knowledge in the language. Second to learn how to be social and develop social intellegens especially in this anti social sociaty i live in. In that time i almsot forgot what made me tick yet im reminded how alone i actually im. I really dont give a damn about small chatt, boring topics and mundane stuff. I just learned to tolerate them.

The healing/clearing have been very creul. I have had two dreams in a row about my father. The first one where he used to sit me and my brother down and lecture us for hours at a time. Everytime he does that he makes me feel worthless, he have a special talent for making people feel bad to the point of hating themselves. He lies, manipulates the subject and the situation, uses interrogation tactics and most importantly his biggest talent is making people feel worthless. Pretty much what his father did to him. This ofcoure went on for years with 3 to 4 lecture a week. Almsot to the point where i feel sick just feeling his presence expecting him to emotionally abuse me even when he is not.

In the first dream, he gets my brother very angry to the point where my brother hits him. He then laughs amd says im going to get you in prison for doing that. For the entire dream i was in despair.. the second dream is more or less him making me feel worthless and feeling like he is right.

What could you expect from a military man who's whole family hate him, his father abused him. He went to prison on false accusation and got tortured for 2 years. And almost nobody tolerates him anymore. He is also ESTJ, the most annyoing type

Unlike dmsi where i felt terrible and afraid during and after dreams. I just feel miserable.

Silverline is that what he made me go through have shaped me for who i am. I also have a quite tough skin thanks to him. Its quite peculiar that MLS is touching on this topic, could be something standing in my way achieving maximum learning speed since his words hold me back still. Maybe

- On a DMSI related note, the new girl im seeing says and i quote: " Stop wearing perfume, your natural smell is delicious ". I asked he what she means and she said " it smells like you "

During sex she once said " your smell is addictive "

A moth later and im still experiancing dmsi's results, the phermone signature is very real.

[Illumi]

I can make tons of connections in many subject areas and can create models and simulations of the world in my head that if given enough variables are extremely accurate.

I also get the underlying meaning behind things and by using first concepts/ causes can grasp things easily.

I might do MLS if AM7 doesn't come out in 2018 but that will be seen.

Man what you said is 100% me. Especially when creating module/simulation and being able to predict whats to come if enough variables are present. I also find myself asking allt of " what if " questions when learing about a new system. Once i know enough i can create a system in my head of how it works. Even re arange and somehow " cheat " the system.

In math i almost never study, yet i always see the answor when i think about the equation. I dont really know how i can prove that i did not cheat, but since i can see thing from all angles i make a rubbish forumla which dosent make sense on how i got the answor. Since this forumla obviously does not exist in any books i tell thr teacher that this way of solving equations if from another country.

When i was a kid, i used to predict what questions whould come in a test and learn them instead of wasting time reading an entire chapter.

Sometimes i find the answor of a question in another question by reading between the lines.

[Illumi]

Strange dreams, feels like im resisting something yet retaining some focus and execution. I really need to start taking action, every little thing i dont do have a ripple effect that comes back to wreck havoic for not doing it. I gotta stop the wishy washy " one day i will do this "