05-02-2023, 06:19 PM
Day 62,
The term "rage to mastery" has come to mind a bit the previous few days. As much as I've had enormous amounts of urgency about success, I've never had a more focused intensity about my desire for success.
Before, it was about the motions, and getting distracted. I'd get more done than 90% of people. Now, I feel a bubbling anger.
Some tasks that I've done before were out of intellectual masturbation.
I've written books on political argument to get all of the confused junk out of my mind, and I've had plans on getting deep into AI, but only after writing a book about how AI could improve political consumption. Now, I realize that dedicating 3-4 months to that would be foolish, and that I should spend one week (tops) outlining the tools I want to make, and then working in the trenches to make that a reality.
I've agreed to undergo the AI tutoring. It's a tad pricey, but if that's they rate they charge, that will be the rate that I'd be able to charge.
I've been seeing pretty women at the gym; normally, I would approach, but I don't really want to. Maybe I'm assuming that I have to inject some extra energy into my conversation for it to be appropriate, but that feels "fake". Perhaps I should simply bring her down to my chill levels. Though it was discouraged in the sales page - for what I assume to be the dogma of the NoFap movement - I haven't done any self-pleasuring since I was with my last partner. This is coming up to one week tonight. I'm not opposed to getting with a hottie and ending that streak, but for now I'm focused on my task.
The term "rage to mastery" has come to mind a bit the previous few days. As much as I've had enormous amounts of urgency about success, I've never had a more focused intensity about my desire for success.
Before, it was about the motions, and getting distracted. I'd get more done than 90% of people. Now, I feel a bubbling anger.
Some tasks that I've done before were out of intellectual masturbation.
I've written books on political argument to get all of the confused junk out of my mind, and I've had plans on getting deep into AI, but only after writing a book about how AI could improve political consumption. Now, I realize that dedicating 3-4 months to that would be foolish, and that I should spend one week (tops) outlining the tools I want to make, and then working in the trenches to make that a reality.
I've agreed to undergo the AI tutoring. It's a tad pricey, but if that's they rate they charge, that will be the rate that I'd be able to charge.
I've been seeing pretty women at the gym; normally, I would approach, but I don't really want to. Maybe I'm assuming that I have to inject some extra energy into my conversation for it to be appropriate, but that feels "fake". Perhaps I should simply bring her down to my chill levels. Though it was discouraged in the sales page - for what I assume to be the dogma of the NoFap movement - I haven't done any self-pleasuring since I was with my last partner. This is coming up to one week tonight. I'm not opposed to getting with a hottie and ending that streak, but for now I'm focused on my task.
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