Shannon you wanted to know if DMSI had a healing effect? Well got my EEG results back they were completely normal , i am now at a less than 10 percent chance for having a seizure my neurologist said, So it had definitely been doing something to my brain.
On a another note i did relapse to porn it was almost like something grabbed a hold of me, and i can remember thinking why are you going to masturbate to porn and ruin all your progress, and it was like i was a puppet and something was pulling the strings, almost as if i had no control, but after that happened i fell into a bit of a depression and i spent a good 3 hours after that just thinking on why i relapsed and im pretty sure i found the reason fear, fear of not being able to have sex good, fear of being not adequate enough in size and i know that is all coming from my first gf because i never had those problems before that, she kind of fucked with my mind told me all about the guy she cheated on me with how big he was all that shit and like an idiot i let it get to me, hearing all that made me feel inadequate, not man enough, like i could never please a girl and my mind got stuck in a loop and kept believing all this shit and it became a reality which has pervaded every aspect of my life to where i believe if i try and do anything i will fail at it and so i never take risks, i never go out unless i need to, i dont do anything because of that fear, because i believed in it so much it has messed my life up. So now i just need to find a way to get rid of that thinking, typing all that out helped a little but i need something to make it click in my brain, something to rain hellfire and brimstone upon that thinking and get rid of it once and for all.
On another more positive note when i do go out like today to get a new coat for winter, i do notice a massive amount of gorgeous women more than ever before dmsi, there used to be one or two i would see when i went out today there was at least 50
On a another note i did relapse to porn it was almost like something grabbed a hold of me, and i can remember thinking why are you going to masturbate to porn and ruin all your progress, and it was like i was a puppet and something was pulling the strings, almost as if i had no control, but after that happened i fell into a bit of a depression and i spent a good 3 hours after that just thinking on why i relapsed and im pretty sure i found the reason fear, fear of not being able to have sex good, fear of being not adequate enough in size and i know that is all coming from my first gf because i never had those problems before that, she kind of fucked with my mind told me all about the guy she cheated on me with how big he was all that shit and like an idiot i let it get to me, hearing all that made me feel inadequate, not man enough, like i could never please a girl and my mind got stuck in a loop and kept believing all this shit and it became a reality which has pervaded every aspect of my life to where i believe if i try and do anything i will fail at it and so i never take risks, i never go out unless i need to, i dont do anything because of that fear, because i believed in it so much it has messed my life up. So now i just need to find a way to get rid of that thinking, typing all that out helped a little but i need something to make it click in my brain, something to rain hellfire and brimstone upon that thinking and get rid of it once and for all.
On another more positive note when i do go out like today to get a new coat for winter, i do notice a massive amount of gorgeous women more than ever before dmsi, there used to be one or two i would see when i went out today there was at least 50
