Fluffybunny's Sex Magnet 3 Journal

[FluffyBunny]

Not really sure why but i feel very Very messed up at the moment...
just gonna describe what im feeling at the moment.

So this feeling seems pretty new to me. Actually i dont even know if its new or not but its starting to feel familiar ...

First its super intense at the chest.

its like a fraction of the feeling is ... life seems to make sense . and there is good stuff ahead.
Most of it feels like intense anger =_=
Not so much of depression is included i think its replaced by the life make sense feeling.

it comes on very strong then goes and leaves about 20% of it there...
the repeats here and there..

and then theres sometimes a light energy sensation ..

havnt had this since stage 1.


OK theres this one fear i got ... this is with girls in my social circle aka school. Im really scared im gonna suck at sex as my first time and like she would tell her friends... and school will know LOL ... what the fuck? =_=

With random girls i dont have this fear ....cause its just random girls...

well... seems so much fun now i have no idea why lol....i think i have got a taste of thrill and is wanting more lol... sheesh im think i jumping levels

EDIT: recently i have been getting quite sexual dreams with quite attractive woman... its quite fun lol
weird thing is i dont recall ever have an intercourse with a girl even if they were naked....even when i am touching them also...
this kinda hints at something .... i dont know why but do any of u sm3 runner dream about having sex with a girl?

EDIT2: Hey Shannon how do you get a girl to fall in love with you?
Lately i have found myself very loving lol. I have always been on this love mode ... like you have read before in my previous posts. But i think lately the neediness and desperateness has been killed so the vibe i am sending out is mostly just love....
When i see a woman i am attracted to... i instantly light up and there is a lot of love feeling generated in me and i can feel it through my chest and eyes and the woman seems to instantly feel it as well. Its like i 100% appreciate their beauty as if they were an angel but at the same time i can walk away from it ... does that kinda make sense???
this use to happen to me long time ago...but i always have that idea of i wish i could have her added on.... i thought it was really desperate so i suppressed it ... so for a long time i rarely have this feeling ....
this pass few days im having it constantly with many many woman.... its like i just enjoy their beauty and i just think of them all as angels with beautiful heart.... its like i have came back to my nature and weeding out all the bad negative desperateness .... i think this is what i am... and it feels to me girls seems to notice it a ton more too....

is this possible ????