01-13-2014, 11:15 AM
(This post was last modified: 01-13-2014, 02:16 PM by FluffyBunny.)
Stage 3 Day 15
Cannont recall my dream last night , pretty sure i was dreaming about elders scroll online hahah i was playing the beta test the night before. i think i was just killing stuff in the dream too.
Anyways what i notice today going to class. honestly i feel like im back to like beginner mode when i type this stuff out. whatever...
i was walking to class . this girl coming my way just like detours to the side.... and like literally went around me instead of just cross me. They seem to be looking on the ground until that very last moment before passing you they look up. Seen this like a million times lol.
Later in the day i saw a girl i knew in my first year . she didnt even recognize me been like almost 8 month we havnt seen each other. cause we made eye contact she looks back down or away ... i just got closer and said Hey.
Shes like Hey! and hugs me right away on my neck . i was surprised because she never hugged me before and she did it so fuckin fast felt like i was getting headlock
we just chat about stuff. Christmas this and that and about exchange programs. i wasnt interested in her so i didnt do anything. she seem to want me to get her number or something cause i felt like there is some sort of energy going on about it. and i can tell from her BL and words. I didnt go for it cause i didnt want to . so we part ways afterwards.
After this my state seems to be a little more opened up. then i notice girls checking me out more . like old times...
Then i went to starbucks. to get a drink. while waiting this girl next to me. i find her natural beauty very pretty... and we kinda just stood there next to each other waiting for coffee. then one point she turns and looks at me... so i turn to look at her. my gosh i was surprised on her looks . its not like model type magazine hot type look . She was licking her lips ? i think my conscious mind couldnt handle the idea or was confused about it . Cause i dont recall girls licking their lips before we even start talking... so pretty much at that moment she turn, licked her lips and i looked and realized what she looks like from the front , i got a instant chill or rush of energy through my entire body i was like woah... literally like tingly feeling through my entire body.. im pretty energy sensitive so i was consciously aware of it. i wonder if its my body telling me " this girl is very suitable for u " .
if it was like 2 months ago i woulda told her shes cute and got the number and went no where lol. Right now im just ... sorting things out lol i dont even know what im doing now...
Conclusion ... seems like if i open the girls up ... even the ones that were blocking me out , they seem to be pretty welcoming . How is this even possible. even funnier they block u out AFTER they were welcoming during the conversation... its like shifting back and forth ...
EDIT: somehow i feel like sex magnet 3 became a neediness killer 3 . should be also call Develop an Aura of rapist . jokes aside i feel like my focus on woman have drops quite a bit and i am starting to put my focus on different things in life. which i like a lot... i wonder what it will be like in the next 3 stages. Cause some the fuck how ... im feeling happy at this given moment.. VERY PUMP in energy.. while doing my homework lol. Conclusion #2 Ok it was because of the house music that im listening to atm made me so pump.... jez lol. but my gosh...it feels so good .. like lifes good . wtf? WHY does it feel this way O_O .
Cannont recall my dream last night , pretty sure i was dreaming about elders scroll online hahah i was playing the beta test the night before. i think i was just killing stuff in the dream too.
Anyways what i notice today going to class. honestly i feel like im back to like beginner mode when i type this stuff out. whatever...
i was walking to class . this girl coming my way just like detours to the side.... and like literally went around me instead of just cross me. They seem to be looking on the ground until that very last moment before passing you they look up. Seen this like a million times lol.
Later in the day i saw a girl i knew in my first year . she didnt even recognize me been like almost 8 month we havnt seen each other. cause we made eye contact she looks back down or away ... i just got closer and said Hey.
Shes like Hey! and hugs me right away on my neck . i was surprised because she never hugged me before and she did it so fuckin fast felt like i was getting headlock
we just chat about stuff. Christmas this and that and about exchange programs. i wasnt interested in her so i didnt do anything. she seem to want me to get her number or something cause i felt like there is some sort of energy going on about it. and i can tell from her BL and words. I didnt go for it cause i didnt want to . so we part ways afterwards.
After this my state seems to be a little more opened up. then i notice girls checking me out more . like old times...
Then i went to starbucks. to get a drink. while waiting this girl next to me. i find her natural beauty very pretty... and we kinda just stood there next to each other waiting for coffee. then one point she turns and looks at me... so i turn to look at her. my gosh i was surprised on her looks . its not like model type magazine hot type look . She was licking her lips ? i think my conscious mind couldnt handle the idea or was confused about it . Cause i dont recall girls licking their lips before we even start talking... so pretty much at that moment she turn, licked her lips and i looked and realized what she looks like from the front , i got a instant chill or rush of energy through my entire body i was like woah... literally like tingly feeling through my entire body.. im pretty energy sensitive so i was consciously aware of it. i wonder if its my body telling me " this girl is very suitable for u " .
if it was like 2 months ago i woulda told her shes cute and got the number and went no where lol. Right now im just ... sorting things out lol i dont even know what im doing now...
Conclusion ... seems like if i open the girls up ... even the ones that were blocking me out , they seem to be pretty welcoming . How is this even possible. even funnier they block u out AFTER they were welcoming during the conversation... its like shifting back and forth ...
EDIT: somehow i feel like sex magnet 3 became a neediness killer 3 . should be also call Develop an Aura of rapist . jokes aside i feel like my focus on woman have drops quite a bit and i am starting to put my focus on different things in life. which i like a lot... i wonder what it will be like in the next 3 stages. Cause some the fuck how ... im feeling happy at this given moment.. VERY PUMP in energy.. while doing my homework lol. Conclusion #2 Ok it was because of the house music that im listening to atm made me so pump.... jez lol. but my gosh...it feels so good .. like lifes good . wtf? WHY does it feel this way O_O .
I am strong because I've been weak. I am fearless because I've been afraid. I am wise, because I've been foolish.