01-07-2014, 04:37 PM
Afzalg:
not like a fan but i enjoyed the movies . i especially enjoy killing zombies in shooting games. but weird thing is i havnt play those games in years... so subconscious must be a funny guy.
Stage 3 Day 9 - Summary of what ive been feeling so hard
Man i think im going crazy... yesterday was first day back to school . Not one girl i knew said Hi to me like they were scared or some shit. i thought to myself wtf is this shit?
so i just cut the line for food and went to one of the girl . We chatted and i teased the shit out of her was quite funny. then one girl said hi to me cause i locked eye contact when she came down the hallway. then i just went to say hey to another one and she was like shocked ...
i was thinking to myself what the hell is this ... like what Shannon mentioned .. they are afraid cause they perceive me as higher value?
then theres just some old resistance cause i made moves on this two girl long time ago and yah...
i did say Hey to one of them thats the one that was kinda in shock
then today in class it felt like she kept looking my way. im thinking stop doing that... gonna dive me crazy. man her hair is so sexy.. this is the girl i made out with before ..
then this other girl that i made a move on her before but has a bf.. seemed to get annoyed in my presence . that only happened when we started separating and not talk to each other much
then i thought to myself ... fuck all these stupid little things not gonna repeat the process again..
but it still gets me . i walked up to her today and said something to her.. then when im done she just goes back and talks to her friend... then lets out a loud sigh . did see her BL was very submissive . i even notice i was speechless i couldnt find one thing to say... . Wow .
other things ive notice is , it does feel like my confident is legendary but weird thing is i somehow have zero urge to approach any girls ... when i see a hot girl now . i only acknowledge that there is a hot girl there and nothing else... i dont even feel the need to say Hi or have any feeling of "liking" the girl or a pull towards it .But at the same time im enjoying their nice features such as nice ass nice body nice hair nice face sexy this sexy that. WHAT THE FUCK? my conclusion is because of the neediness is dropped so low thats why it feels this way. but how come i dont feel like im getting more attention from the girls ? Maybe its cause im ignoring it .. ? i do find myself scanning around much less . i only look at the girls coming towards me or in my line of vision.i guess ima just go be a zen monk in the mountains
sooooooo much contrast going on is crazy
shannon enlighten me....
not like a fan but i enjoyed the movies . i especially enjoy killing zombies in shooting games. but weird thing is i havnt play those games in years... so subconscious must be a funny guy.
Stage 3 Day 9 - Summary of what ive been feeling so hard
Man i think im going crazy... yesterday was first day back to school . Not one girl i knew said Hi to me like they were scared or some shit. i thought to myself wtf is this shit?
so i just cut the line for food and went to one of the girl . We chatted and i teased the shit out of her was quite funny. then one girl said hi to me cause i locked eye contact when she came down the hallway. then i just went to say hey to another one and she was like shocked ...
i was thinking to myself what the hell is this ... like what Shannon mentioned .. they are afraid cause they perceive me as higher value?
then theres just some old resistance cause i made moves on this two girl long time ago and yah...
i did say Hey to one of them thats the one that was kinda in shock
then today in class it felt like she kept looking my way. im thinking stop doing that... gonna dive me crazy. man her hair is so sexy.. this is the girl i made out with before ..
then this other girl that i made a move on her before but has a bf.. seemed to get annoyed in my presence . that only happened when we started separating and not talk to each other much
then i thought to myself ... fuck all these stupid little things not gonna repeat the process again..
but it still gets me . i walked up to her today and said something to her.. then when im done she just goes back and talks to her friend... then lets out a loud sigh . did see her BL was very submissive . i even notice i was speechless i couldnt find one thing to say... . Wow .
other things ive notice is , it does feel like my confident is legendary but weird thing is i somehow have zero urge to approach any girls ... when i see a hot girl now . i only acknowledge that there is a hot girl there and nothing else... i dont even feel the need to say Hi or have any feeling of "liking" the girl or a pull towards it .But at the same time im enjoying their nice features such as nice ass nice body nice hair nice face sexy this sexy that. WHAT THE FUCK? my conclusion is because of the neediness is dropped so low thats why it feels this way. but how come i dont feel like im getting more attention from the girls ? Maybe its cause im ignoring it .. ? i do find myself scanning around much less . i only look at the girls coming towards me or in my line of vision.i guess ima just go be a zen monk in the mountains
sooooooo much contrast going on is crazy
shannon enlighten me....
I am strong because I've been weak. I am fearless because I've been afraid. I am wise, because I've been foolish.
