11-27-2013, 02:17 AM
(This post was last modified: 11-27-2013, 02:52 AM by FluffyBunny.)
Stage 1 Day 30
Hmmm sometimes about it that i have similar thought with other SM3 runners .
i wanna quite this and run am6 when it comes out...
reason is that i feel not as rock solid as before...
feeling very wishy washy these days.
Maybe its just my head playing games...
because i dont see anyone mistreating me or try to step on me at all.
3-4 nights ago,
2 nights in a row.
i woke up few times.... feeling crazy intensely angry and feel back to sleep woke up later...again feeling same thing then repeats like 3 times lol
funny thing the same night...i had vivid dreams having fun with a porn star haha. Oh i and few of these ... of course only one was a porn star but i remember pleasuring some woman, but i never put my dick in any of them... that kinda shows something about my subconscious . we would do everything like make out , strip , sucking breast.... then i never end up putting my dick inside any girl.
Another night i woke up having a nightmare dream , woke up with some fear, then just ignored it fell back to sleep ...
Thing is i dont feel as strong... of a presence anymore.... (sometimes i do, sometimes i dont. these pass couple days i feel pretty netural i think its cause i have zero girls to look forward to even seeing , i tend to need one girl i like regardless of she likes me or not it makes me feel more alive aka depress sometimes .... aka emotional roller coaster ... )
( i mean theres a girl or two that has obvious interests in me but they arent my type. ) (today i feel very out of balance with myself like i didnt even care whats going on anywhere around me... or girls .. or whatever . interesting enough . i asked cashier one question she goes on by answers me with like shit load of information and then calls herself cheap.. and laughs about it....)
Feels like the AM5 effects have ware off a bit
But the thing is people still treat me pretty good guys and girls.
But also i do see a lot more people try to test me out as well compare to while i was running AM5.
sometimes some random ass dude just tries to gaze into me or stare at me. They use to dont do that when i run AM5. Then when i notice it , i would look at them , they would always look away afterwards.
Sometimes... few retards would hold the gaze then turn their bodies and keep looking at me.
i would stop and turn and look at them funny thing is they just keep walking away...
This didnt happen during AM5. most people dont return my gaze during am5. probly like 1% did
now i say like 5%? fuck knows...
Anyways.... not sure if i should stick to this one
or Run am6 then back to this one.
my current thoughts are . finish sm3 to become more sexual then run am6. while i run am6 i will have foundations of sm3, then after i finish am6 go back and refresh sm3 or run the entire thing i think by that time effects should be pretty good . but thats too far to consider. so im looking forward to see what other users will be going through in stage 3 as im moving forward to stage 2.
Shannon u did say im getting pretty good results for stage 1 , maybe its just cause there so much subtle changes....that im feeling unbalance ????
Hmmm sometimes about it that i have similar thought with other SM3 runners .
i wanna quite this and run am6 when it comes out...
reason is that i feel not as rock solid as before...
feeling very wishy washy these days.
Maybe its just my head playing games...
because i dont see anyone mistreating me or try to step on me at all.
3-4 nights ago,
2 nights in a row.
i woke up few times.... feeling crazy intensely angry and feel back to sleep woke up later...again feeling same thing then repeats like 3 times lol
funny thing the same night...i had vivid dreams having fun with a porn star haha. Oh i and few of these ... of course only one was a porn star but i remember pleasuring some woman, but i never put my dick in any of them... that kinda shows something about my subconscious . we would do everything like make out , strip , sucking breast.... then i never end up putting my dick inside any girl.
Another night i woke up having a nightmare dream , woke up with some fear, then just ignored it fell back to sleep ...
Thing is i dont feel as strong... of a presence anymore.... (sometimes i do, sometimes i dont. these pass couple days i feel pretty netural i think its cause i have zero girls to look forward to even seeing , i tend to need one girl i like regardless of she likes me or not it makes me feel more alive aka depress sometimes .... aka emotional roller coaster ... )
( i mean theres a girl or two that has obvious interests in me but they arent my type. ) (today i feel very out of balance with myself like i didnt even care whats going on anywhere around me... or girls .. or whatever . interesting enough . i asked cashier one question she goes on by answers me with like shit load of information and then calls herself cheap.. and laughs about it....)
Feels like the AM5 effects have ware off a bit
But the thing is people still treat me pretty good guys and girls.
But also i do see a lot more people try to test me out as well compare to while i was running AM5.
sometimes some random ass dude just tries to gaze into me or stare at me. They use to dont do that when i run AM5. Then when i notice it , i would look at them , they would always look away afterwards.
Sometimes... few retards would hold the gaze then turn their bodies and keep looking at me.
i would stop and turn and look at them funny thing is they just keep walking away...
This didnt happen during AM5. most people dont return my gaze during am5. probly like 1% did
now i say like 5%? fuck knows...
Anyways.... not sure if i should stick to this one
or Run am6 then back to this one.
my current thoughts are . finish sm3 to become more sexual then run am6. while i run am6 i will have foundations of sm3, then after i finish am6 go back and refresh sm3 or run the entire thing i think by that time effects should be pretty good . but thats too far to consider. so im looking forward to see what other users will be going through in stage 3 as im moving forward to stage 2.
Shannon u did say im getting pretty good results for stage 1 , maybe its just cause there so much subtle changes....that im feeling unbalance ????
I am strong because I've been weak. I am fearless because I've been afraid. I am wise, because I've been foolish.
