10-19-2013, 02:59 PM
(This post was last modified: 10-19-2013, 05:37 PM by FluffyBunny.)
Stage 6 day 25
My emotions is way too much dependent on outside conditions.
and because of this.... i feel really angry at myself...inside at the chest.
As well as when i am actually in certain moments i break from alpha back into beta mode. Depending on the situation and the girl. i notice this ....happening. sometimes i have to snap myself back. and most of the time this only happens AFTERWARDS.....when things are done...
fuckin intense anger .... sigh .
i swear i need to think with my dick and balls more often...
i swear the moment i start running SM3. ima think with my dick with every new girl i see and meet.
on to SM3 i go
Summary ... October has been the most ups and downs i had in a while . Insane emotional roller coaster. if i didnt have these experience before in overcoming. i would of broken down... already... and not function .
phewwww.... past suffering helps u become what u are today.
My emotions is way too much dependent on outside conditions.
and because of this.... i feel really angry at myself...inside at the chest.
As well as when i am actually in certain moments i break from alpha back into beta mode. Depending on the situation and the girl. i notice this ....happening. sometimes i have to snap myself back. and most of the time this only happens AFTERWARDS.....when things are done...
fuckin intense anger .... sigh .
i swear i need to think with my dick and balls more often...
i swear the moment i start running SM3. ima think with my dick with every new girl i see and meet.
on to SM3 i go
Summary ... October has been the most ups and downs i had in a while . Insane emotional roller coaster. if i didnt have these experience before in overcoming. i would of broken down... already... and not function .
phewwww.... past suffering helps u become what u are today.
I am strong because I've been weak. I am fearless because I've been afraid. I am wise, because I've been foolish.
