09-04-2019, 01:26 AM
I had an amazing experience last night running LTU. I've never had this happen.
I ran ultrasonic loops all night on my Chromebook laptop. The drive is almost full, and making sets of loops requires too much space, so I just looped it. This was in addition to running hybrid throughout the day for 30 minutes to an hour several times during the day. I'd done that since I got real pissed at my sister, cleaned up quickly, and took a walk which rain shortened. So I isolated a few times with my laptop, I'd listen to LTU to calm myself some, and it did help.
Here's what was different about sleep. I'd swear I'd gotten 10-12 hours sleep, as I dreamt numerous times. I only got 8 hours sleep. This isn't normal for me. But what REALLY stuck with me was an awareness after a dream that I have acclimated to so much fear. So much. I thought "I've listened to 10+ hours today, I feel good, and I can live with less fear running LTU more". Logically, this might be debatable. But damn, feeling free is a drug in itself.
I was seeing how I'd look for my fear triggers at home, and wrap myself up in them daily. I'm going to experiment with more LTU loops when home. I'll change as needed, but damn, freedom is a whole new desirable thing. No rush. No stress. What a night.
I ran ultrasonic loops all night on my Chromebook laptop. The drive is almost full, and making sets of loops requires too much space, so I just looped it. This was in addition to running hybrid throughout the day for 30 minutes to an hour several times during the day. I'd done that since I got real pissed at my sister, cleaned up quickly, and took a walk which rain shortened. So I isolated a few times with my laptop, I'd listen to LTU to calm myself some, and it did help.
Here's what was different about sleep. I'd swear I'd gotten 10-12 hours sleep, as I dreamt numerous times. I only got 8 hours sleep. This isn't normal for me. But what REALLY stuck with me was an awareness after a dream that I have acclimated to so much fear. So much. I thought "I've listened to 10+ hours today, I feel good, and I can live with less fear running LTU more". Logically, this might be debatable. But damn, feeling free is a drug in itself.
I was seeing how I'd look for my fear triggers at home, and wrap myself up in them daily. I'm going to experiment with more LTU loops when home. I'll change as needed, but damn, freedom is a whole new desirable thing. No rush. No stress. What a night.
I want to be FREE!
