04-22-2019, 11:41 AM
(04-22-2019, 10:27 AM)EvolvingPhoenix Wrote: Findingme, you are doing a much better job than I've done at recognizing these manipulative patterns and xhanging cpurse. Kudos! I emvy you. I've birned some bridges with this behaviour...
EP,
Seriously, your envy is understandable. Were I in your shoes, reading another person making progress (even painfully), I would be jealous too. Maybe 5 years back, I was in a 12 step meeting, and someone had just come back from a retreat, and they sat in peace with themselves after puking up their uglies to complete strangers. He had grown, and I wanted some of what he had. In truth, I contacted this retreat. Emailed the leader. But have been scared to follow through. Too much doubt, distraction, and fear to commit time and money.
But subliminals? I could still hide, with noone really knowing what changes I was experiencing. With the retreat, I feared a disappointment and a public shaming. But upon using my first subliminal and feeling GOOD, I wanted more.
It's Universal Detox inside of LTU which allows this awareness and almost "need" to be honest. I ran UD solo for almost 3 months, and this subliminal alone showed all the deception I was engaged in. So when Shannon said UD would be in LTU, I wanted in. $600 was a bit, but I've saved repeatedly to jump into small businesses (pulled out too.....low self esteem). I considered this a real investment in ME. I even had the most fear the night I paid for it. I was pulled this way, that way.......and even "really? You're going to do this?!" All this was in my own head.
Being completely honest now............ I'm kind of jealous of you
. E3 has UD in it now, and it's still only $115. I think E3 is the current "sleeper" sub since LTU is getting the most attention. I'm jealous since the full package of LTU is unwrapped slowly. There's 12 whole subs in here. Plus, I am a very emotional person. I don't express it everywhere, but I feel it everywhere. Solo subs, especially E2/E3 have their place! And I truly like simple subs where you know stuff's being worked on. I'd know (E2) was working each day since I was just......happy.... a LOT. Not owned by fear, guilt, and shame. Feeling hopeful. And even being eyed heavily by women in public. I was on an emotional healing sub, and I'd sworn I was using DMSI! Feel good + sensual messages from women? I'm IN!!! Mix that for me Shannon! I'm in! ........I was only able to pick up LTU since I could afford it. But as I see it, you've got access to a golden ticket yourself. E2 now, and for healing such as you've seen in my case, E3 (or LTU, as you've shared you're waiting on funds). UD, an extremely powerful emotional healing sub, was and is very underrated, and it's what's clearing me out NOW. Let it work on you, and in time, you won't be able to BS yourself! That......is FREEDOM!
I sound like Keith now :-)
And seriously, I'm also pretty sure the sensual attention will return while using LTU. I've gotten some in my early days, but the clearing of UD has had me being low key in public lately. From what I know, we're all attracted to honest people, for then it allows us to drop our lies too.
I want to be FREE!
