04-21-2019, 06:00 AM
I became aware this morning that I'm avoiding awareness of some past trauma in my life. I also realized I've been doing this for eons. I woke up, haven't got up, and even desired just to sleep it away. While thinking about sleeping, old fear and feelings were stirring just underneath, not openly. I thought "it's Easter, yet I'd rather let this process do its thing today". It just feels right taking care of me 
I ran SIA right after my LTU loops yesterday, and am still running it. While lying here, I had enough want and courage to step closer to the root of what was stirring, and I realized that that's why I rarely remember dreams. Some big memory is being worked on. I've not even thought or felt I was overwhelmed either.
This encourages me. I'm not locked down by fear.
I ran SIA right after my LTU loops yesterday, and am still running it. While lying here, I had enough want and courage to step closer to the root of what was stirring, and I realized that that's why I rarely remember dreams. Some big memory is being worked on. I've not even thought or felt I was overwhelmed either.
This encourages me. I'm not locked down by fear.
I want to be FREE!
