07-04-2020, 09:57 AM
Not much to update. I had fears re-surface on the last day of SARB, but that was good. I could discern the effects of OF clearly after I started running it again. Now it's time for SARB again, and I am quite looking forward to it, even though I don't really want to stop running the sub.
I took up web dev, and I've been relentlessly working through HTML/CSS for the starters. It isn't all a fearless experience, I had headaches the first day, and procrastination issues as well. But things are smoothing along very well and I've found my rhythm. Now I put the pedal to the metal with a clear goal in sight. I do tend to sleep a couple of hours extra now, but I don't mind that.
I did think of applying for a new job (lost my job due to COVID-19), but I do believe my time is much better spent on learning a new skill at the moment. I slacked for a couple of months after losing my job, and that was learned helplessness based on fear. Earlier, I did think what if I am not going for a job because of fear? But that's one thing that is way, way down. I don't spend much time thinking about what-ifs and whatnots anymore. I genuinely believe (after weighing the pros and cons) that I am better off doing what I am doing now. No further need to battle it out in my head.
I've been extremely relaxed since the very first day, and there hasn't been a change to that. In a nutshell, all good, can't ask for more really.
I took up web dev, and I've been relentlessly working through HTML/CSS for the starters. It isn't all a fearless experience, I had headaches the first day, and procrastination issues as well. But things are smoothing along very well and I've found my rhythm. Now I put the pedal to the metal with a clear goal in sight. I do tend to sleep a couple of hours extra now, but I don't mind that.
I did think of applying for a new job (lost my job due to COVID-19), but I do believe my time is much better spent on learning a new skill at the moment. I slacked for a couple of months after losing my job, and that was learned helplessness based on fear. Earlier, I did think what if I am not going for a job because of fear? But that's one thing that is way, way down. I don't spend much time thinking about what-ifs and whatnots anymore. I genuinely believe (after weighing the pros and cons) that I am better off doing what I am doing now. No further need to battle it out in my head.
I've been extremely relaxed since the very first day, and there hasn't been a change to that. In a nutshell, all good, can't ask for more really.
