Quick Update:
Back into the dark night of my soul. Lots of depressive resistance. But, as I write this, I'm feeling my heart chakra open and my body is becoming VERY hot. Outside of providing Shannon with data, journaling always helps me introspect and explore my feelings.
Someone noted that it seems that I'm experiencing a rollercoaster effect -- one day, I feel like KING ALPHA, the next day I'm down in the dumps. I believe the clearing modules has purged all of the surface level crap. Now, every time it kicks in, it's trying to clean and heal the DEEP, DEEP identity level wounds. The things that are TRULY keeping me from executing the program. So, I suspect I'll be feeling like I AM THE LIVING EMBODIMENT OF THE SEX by tomorrow.
In other news, Sarge mentioned that he's experiencing very strong erections. I'm experiencing the same thing, and at RANDOM. I was literally reading the news earlier and realized that I had BLUE BALLS. That hasn't happened in almost a decade. I know all the boxing training is helping, but I know for a fact DMSI is the prime mover. Even when I was training in kickboxing REALLY HARD, I didn't have erections like this.
In fact... the last time I had erection quality like this... was before my first girlfriend cheated on me. After she cheated, I had a string of terrible relationships (because I was a super beta after having my trust shattered) and eventually, it got to the point that I had to use illegally sourced Viagra to even perform. EDIT: This is another reason why I get rage-tastic when someone suggests that my results are "placebo." I've been through a lot of SH*T and I don't need someone telling me that I'm imagining things, especially when those people come back and say crap like, I'm not reading the forums. So basically, they're telling people that their experiences and results mean nothing, then refusing to allow you to prove otherwise.
Right.
I'm guessing DMSI is not only clearing those mental traumas, but also adjusting my brain and body chemistry to increase my testosterone and other hormones so that I may reach MSI. In addition to the increased erection quality, I'm also experiencing increased healing speed. I box four days a week for at least an hour and a half. It's a very intense workout, and I'm healing at a remarkable rate. ESPECIALLY my knees, which were very weak when I started training.
I'm also noticing subtle, but deep and profound changes in my thought processes. I'm no longer content with mediocrity. The idea of becoming a multimillionaire is dominating my mind. And I'll take many (ethical) measures to get there, things I didn't consider before -- things like applying for a part-time job (and military reserve service) to cover my basic living expenses so that I can dedicate my business profits to business expansion.
I am becoming a living embodiment of my mission. It's no longer some abstract idea in my head. I AM that mission.
Back into the dark night of my soul. Lots of depressive resistance. But, as I write this, I'm feeling my heart chakra open and my body is becoming VERY hot. Outside of providing Shannon with data, journaling always helps me introspect and explore my feelings.
Someone noted that it seems that I'm experiencing a rollercoaster effect -- one day, I feel like KING ALPHA, the next day I'm down in the dumps. I believe the clearing modules has purged all of the surface level crap. Now, every time it kicks in, it's trying to clean and heal the DEEP, DEEP identity level wounds. The things that are TRULY keeping me from executing the program. So, I suspect I'll be feeling like I AM THE LIVING EMBODIMENT OF THE SEX by tomorrow.
In other news, Sarge mentioned that he's experiencing very strong erections. I'm experiencing the same thing, and at RANDOM. I was literally reading the news earlier and realized that I had BLUE BALLS. That hasn't happened in almost a decade. I know all the boxing training is helping, but I know for a fact DMSI is the prime mover. Even when I was training in kickboxing REALLY HARD, I didn't have erections like this.
In fact... the last time I had erection quality like this... was before my first girlfriend cheated on me. After she cheated, I had a string of terrible relationships (because I was a super beta after having my trust shattered) and eventually, it got to the point that I had to use illegally sourced Viagra to even perform. EDIT: This is another reason why I get rage-tastic when someone suggests that my results are "placebo." I've been through a lot of SH*T and I don't need someone telling me that I'm imagining things, especially when those people come back and say crap like, I'm not reading the forums. So basically, they're telling people that their experiences and results mean nothing, then refusing to allow you to prove otherwise.
Right.
I'm guessing DMSI is not only clearing those mental traumas, but also adjusting my brain and body chemistry to increase my testosterone and other hormones so that I may reach MSI. In addition to the increased erection quality, I'm also experiencing increased healing speed. I box four days a week for at least an hour and a half. It's a very intense workout, and I'm healing at a remarkable rate. ESPECIALLY my knees, which were very weak when I started training.
I'm also noticing subtle, but deep and profound changes in my thought processes. I'm no longer content with mediocrity. The idea of becoming a multimillionaire is dominating my mind. And I'll take many (ethical) measures to get there, things I didn't consider before -- things like applying for a part-time job (and military reserve service) to cover my basic living expenses so that I can dedicate my business profits to business expansion.
I am becoming a living embodiment of my mission. It's no longer some abstract idea in my head. I AM that mission.
