F*CKIN' DMSI!!!! (a DMSI v3.0.1b Tale)

[DarthXedonias]

See, there's a side of me that I don't reveal to many people. I call it "the razor." It's something that developed early in my life, something that I've spent a significant amount of energy trying to suppress. Mainly because it terrifies other people when it arises and mainly because I have a hard time understanding and defining it myself. However, when I lose myself to it, I find that my personal successes skyrocket. The easiest way I can describe it is a state of mind in which I become extremely cold and calculating (but not necessary manipulative or immoral), detaching myself from emotional and societal considerations to observe the world in a completely objective matter. "The razor" allows me to see deep, hidden patterns in seemingly disparate pieces of data and make decisions based on what I'm seeing.

I find it interesting that you mentioned this. I didn't mention this before but that night when I almost had that psychotic episode afterwards I felt very cold and calculating. It was like a bunch of moral rules I had made up for myself or had been put on me by other people had just up and vanished. Part of me was scared (for just a few mins) but I kinda of just pushed that away and it felt very freeing to be this way. I don't know if you felt similar but for me it wasn't just cold and calculating either. Whereas I usually took in moral considerations when making certain decisions I find myself more and more at just looking at it from a cost/benefit para-dime. Its like I don't really give a crap "morals" as much. Doesn't mean if I have a goal and someone is in the way I'm going to kill them or anything. I wouldn't do it because the benefit to myself would be little while the cost to myself would be very high. Sounds kinda of bad when I type it out like that but just being honest. One of my first thoughts was, "Dang, this must be what Varys and Peter Baelish (Game of Thrones) must feel like". Weirdly enough, I've been having the feeling to listen to the audio book for "The Prince" by Niccolò Machiavelli again.

I am interested if this is indeed a INTP thing since I am one as well (since you mentioned previously you can't actually change your type).