12-02-2016, 11:51 PM
Shannon's changed something and didn't tell us.
Resistance feels... different on this thing. It's a very ODD sensation that I can't quite put into words. It's like, I feel like I SHOULD be depressed, but I'm not. Just this lingering feeling that something's off in the world. A slight anxiety that there's a glitch in the matrix somewhere far far away, yet close enough for me to be slightly worried about it.
You know that feeling you get when you hear about North Korea's latest nuclear missile test? Yeah, that's it.
I'm willing to bet that this is an upgrade of the programming from E2 that shields the conscious mind from what the healing / clearing module.
Haven't had a real chance to test v3.0.1a's celeb or attraction effects. I've been too busy focused on resistance in one way or another. Rage this morning. Nebulous feelings of fear, regret and loss tonight.
My subconscious is also finding very clever ways to trick me into switching to another sub. At one point, it had me convinced that I should go back to v2.5 for a bit, since I never really gave that version a "real shakedown." I'm also have weird, intense fears of my parents dying and my own death. This is a mainstay of DMSI. For some reason, when I resist DMSI, I always get this intense preoccupation with death. I'm guessing it's related to this deep darkness, that's somehow linked expressing my sexuality with dying.
On the flipside, had lots of weird things go down in regards to the celeb effect. Men wanting to hold random conversations. Or, giving me quick, odd looks. When I walked into the boxing gym today, I had this one guy -- who I've seen tons of times and never got a reaction from -- try and stare me down while doing leg extensions very ferociously, breathing like a bull. The reaction was so cartoonish that I almost laughed in his damn face.
Women kept peeking their eyes at me and looking away. I don't feel ghosted, but I do feel like they're being too intimidated by the aura to approach. I have a feeling that v3.0.1 may go well with those of you who like to daygame and the such.
Like I said, though. No chance to REALLY test the sub yet. Haven't been out. That probably won't happen until next week.
... although, I'm supposed to be meeting up with M and my friend tomorrow night...
Resistance feels... different on this thing. It's a very ODD sensation that I can't quite put into words. It's like, I feel like I SHOULD be depressed, but I'm not. Just this lingering feeling that something's off in the world. A slight anxiety that there's a glitch in the matrix somewhere far far away, yet close enough for me to be slightly worried about it.
You know that feeling you get when you hear about North Korea's latest nuclear missile test? Yeah, that's it.
I'm willing to bet that this is an upgrade of the programming from E2 that shields the conscious mind from what the healing / clearing module.
Haven't had a real chance to test v3.0.1a's celeb or attraction effects. I've been too busy focused on resistance in one way or another. Rage this morning. Nebulous feelings of fear, regret and loss tonight.
My subconscious is also finding very clever ways to trick me into switching to another sub. At one point, it had me convinced that I should go back to v2.5 for a bit, since I never really gave that version a "real shakedown." I'm also have weird, intense fears of my parents dying and my own death. This is a mainstay of DMSI. For some reason, when I resist DMSI, I always get this intense preoccupation with death. I'm guessing it's related to this deep darkness, that's somehow linked expressing my sexuality with dying.
On the flipside, had lots of weird things go down in regards to the celeb effect. Men wanting to hold random conversations. Or, giving me quick, odd looks. When I walked into the boxing gym today, I had this one guy -- who I've seen tons of times and never got a reaction from -- try and stare me down while doing leg extensions very ferociously, breathing like a bull. The reaction was so cartoonish that I almost laughed in his damn face.
Women kept peeking their eyes at me and looking away. I don't feel ghosted, but I do feel like they're being too intimidated by the aura to approach. I have a feeling that v3.0.1 may go well with those of you who like to daygame and the such.
Like I said, though. No chance to REALLY test the sub yet. Haven't been out. That probably won't happen until next week.
... although, I'm supposed to be meeting up with M and my friend tomorrow night...
