09-11-2020, 10:02 AM
(09-06-2020, 06:32 AM)Shannon Wrote: Being okay with dying is not necessarily a bad thing. I am okay with dying, but I have no need, want or desire to die. I am simply unafraid of death itself. Death is a poor escape plan, though. Better to grow into being who and what you need to be to get past what makes you want to escape in the first place. I have been in some pretty bad places emotionally in my life, and I'm doing a LOT better now by using my own programs. I'm also helping my gf get past some of the same issues I had with them. When the chips were down for me, the reason I never ended my life was that upon reflection, I knew that it would hurt the people I love most, and I could not bear to do that. My mother kept me alive more than once that way without ever even knowing it. Just remember that - your actions and choices have consequences, and they affect other people. Hurting others, intentionally or otherwise, is never a good thing.
You said it correctly when saying that we should be ok with dying but have no need, want or desire for it. In times of deep despair and pain I felt the desire for death so that in itself show that I am not ok emotionally. I'm not suicidal nor been in a point that I want to die though except back in my early 20s. I realize the feeling and realization is almost the same. Back in my early 20s I felt I was feeling that I haven't accomplished much in life especially in terms of relationships with people. Now 10 years on, I'm still feeling it but more on accomplishments on other things. As such there are cases when I work too hard that it became detrimental too my health because I want to be able to succeed. I took a back seat this year and what's bad is that my business suffered but mostly it is because of the economic situation that the lockdown has caused.
(09-06-2020, 06:32 AM)Shannon Wrote: That's good that you realize that. It definitely helped me through some tough times!
I put my trust on the sub and strive to be positive.
