EPRHA (Rise of the Phoenix)

[Tao374]

The last few days have been a struggle but the darkness is beginning to clear. I have increased my listening time. At first I had a 7 hour ultrasonic playlist set up to play at night even though I usually sleep 8-9 hours. I now play the ultrasonic continuously though out my entire sleep cycle to help combat the resistance and push forward. This caused the intense and exciting dreams to come back. My totally daily exposure is around 12 hours now (more some days). I stumbled onto this You Tube video earlier https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JKe43Ak1y1c it's by Bruce Lipton and talk about how the conscious and subconscious interact. It's not really any new information to me but still very interesting and has to deal with what I believe most of are trying to achieve here with subs.

[Asanti]

Thanks for sharing this video! I havn't seen it before
The vivid dreams are freaking awesome
I remember that on approximately days 130/131 I had two really cool dreams where I felt extremely powerful and emotionaly stable... I've never had such dreams before. That might indicate a breakthrough...
Good luck!

[Tao374]

Thanks for sharing this video! I havn't seen it before
The vivid dreams are freaking awesome
I remember that on approximately days 130/131 I had two really cool dreams where I felt extremely powerful and emotionaly stable... I've never had such dreams before. That might indicate a breakthrough...
Good luck!

Your welcome and the book The Honeymoon Effect that goes with the video is good I'm reading with kindle now.

[Tao374]

Day 28: Wouldn't say I'm heeled yet but a lot of weight has been lifted off of me. I function much better and it is so much easier getting though my day lately. The new mantra seems to have emerged from my subconscious "the past is over". Similar to "I'm so confided" that emerged while using ASC. Also, the maturity improvement that is suppose to be in the sub seems to be taking effect. I want to make better choices and seem to be seeing things in a more intelligent way at times. Still looking forward to completing 96 days of EPRHA then probably will do 96 days of LTU.

[Tao374]

Day 35: Had a relapse over the weekend. Went out and drink pretty heavy. I had been doing so much better about that. I still think this sub is helping to get to the root of why I feel the need to drink and have sex all the time. One thing I have noticed that has been very surprising is my environment is starting to look different. Let me explain, I have a strong background in meditation and after a good meditation session the room around you will look much brighter and alive. Also, there is added depth or dimensional perception shift that goes along with this. Those of you that take psychedelic drugs may also be able to relate to this (however I don't recommend for your health, shortcuts have consequences and don't support long term growth). Anyways this is happening a lot lately and I haven't been meditating very much, just listening to this sub and working a lot. With a little more self discipline I think I'm going to continue to have amazing results with this sub.

Thanks for reading and good day.

[Tao374]

Day 43: Nothing really new to report regarding the sub. However, I've committed myself to NoFap. I'm currently on day 6. Don't think I have made it past about 4 days since my freshman summer of high school when I spent a month in Europe. Day 4 was really hard again on this cycle but I got past it and feel way better. I don't really have a goal for this except, just hoping it takes me to the next level. I've been interested in doing this for a long time. I remember reading a book titled "Kabbalah on Sex" by Yehuda Berg, where he talk about improving both your life and your sex by changing your sexual habits. Also watched this TED Talk video about porn https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wSF82AwSDiU it's very interesting. Should also probably mention the Kanye West article my teacher gave me http://www.eonline.com/news/100270/kanye...ed-success. The point being this is something I need to do! Hoping for more creativity, better choices of female companions, mind expansion (perception shift) and more success in my life. I take a dietary supplement that contains Schizandra, which is one of the better astringents in traditional Chincese Medicine. Astringents help conserve energy by preventing energy leakages. Also, they help prevent the loss of bodily fluids. I think this is helping me a little bit. I want to go back to taking a formula called Microcosmic Orbit by Dragon Herbs. It is really awesome it contains 8 astringent herbs and when I took it before it really changed the way I felt and and had a tremendous effect on my sex life (was really sexually active at the time). Basically it allows energy in the body to flow properly (sexual energy being one of them).

Left some things out: I'm having rather intense sexual dreams lately, evolving females that I interact with regularly. The dreams are kind of satisfying but I don't climax in the dreams, they seem to fade into something else. I believe I have the willpower for NoFap but it's still not easy. I'm getting headaches/irritation that come and go. I was reading about people comparing to addiction i.e. drug withdraw symptoms. It kind of is like that. I have an addictive personality and brain is looking for a way to indulge it's self but I'm breaking myself of one more bad habit. Hopefully my body and brain will begin to reprogram its self to operate this way. Meaningful life here I come

[Tao374]

Day 55: Still listening, had a crazy weekend after my last post and wasn't home to listen two nights in a row. Hoping that didn't set me back to bad. What this sub is doing is hard to explain. When I used ASC it was easy to see changes as the sub built up my confidence. This sub actually tears you down and removes all of you that you don't need. That being said it's confusing sometimes because emotions that I have associated myself with being for years are hard to find and I'm like who am I. This is a good things but without some of these deep dark emotions and thoughts that have driven me for so long I feel almost lost at times. I have faith that I will land in a good place from this journey and look forward to completing my 96 days of EPRHA and moving into LTU.

On my last post I have went back on my complete NoFap. I have removed porn from my life as I basically no longer like it anyways but I feel like extended periods of built up sexual tensions are not healthy. It was hurting my work productivity, mood and social life.

Emotionally I seem to be healing more the longer I listen. I'm starting to feel like I can open and actually have a relationship that isn't based on sex. I feel more emotionally available but not in a bad or door mat kind of way. Undecided if I actually want to pursue another serious relationship at this time; just kind of enjoying the inner peace I've been having.

That's enough for tonight need to sleep, thanks for reading and happy journey.

[zen]

Happy nofapping!

[smoothsam]

Awesome progress. EPRHA is an amazing program. The only constant in life is change. Do you want positive change? Remove the negative, so the positive can thrive. Nobody wants weeds in their garden. Yet I am surprised that many people are allowing weeds to grow in their mental garden.

-Sam

[SurferJoy]

I basically no longer like it anyways but I feel like extended periods of built up sexual tensions are not healthy. It was hurting my work productivity, mood and social life.

Check out something called circular breathing from David Deida and/or Mantak Chia. It will help you release this energy.

[Tao374]

Happy nofapping!

Thanks Zen

Awesome progress. EPRHA is an amazing program. The only constant in life is change. Do you want positive change? Remove the negative, so the positive can thrive. Nobody wants weeds in their garden. Yet I am surprised that many people are allowing weeds to grow in their mental garden.

-Sam

I do I do I do, time to change my inner mantras.

I basically no longer like it anyways but I feel like extended periods of built up sexual tensions are not healthy. It was hurting my work productivity, mood and social life.

Check out something called circular breathing from David Deida and/or Mantak Chia. It will help you release this energy.

Hum this looks interesting I'm going to have to give this a try.

[Tao374]

Day 65: So nothing to major to report but I feel like the sub is working on something big. I'm having a hard time sleeping at night and that's very unusual for me. Sometimes it feels like the drill from the movie "Armageddon" is drilling into my head. Pretty much exhausted right now but I've noticed every time I go through one of these cycles the sun shines brighter than ever when I get to the other side. On a side note I got a new job today. No more $8 hour . Not sure if it's related to this sub or not but probably didn't hurt (at least the self validation part). This is a really subtle sub; my relationships with people around me appear to be healing and/or getting better but if I don't stop to reflect on the changes I probably wouldn't notice them at all. I've had a few interested females lately but not quite what I'm looking for (why settle?). I think EPRHA is really making me more available for a relationship but I want to invest the energy into bettering myself right now and reap the fruits of an amazing relationship after I've made myself stronger and have my life more in order.

Thanks for reading and keep posting, your journals inspire me.

[Tao374]

Day 67: Just a quick update had kind of an epiphany about EPHRA today. EPRHA is like your own personal sanitation crew for your mind. It goes in and takes out all the garbage in your psyche that you thought you needed but really don't. Things that I thought were just me or part of me that I have clung to all of my life. Anyways still looking forward to seeing what the last month of this sub does and starting LTU .

[Tao374]

Day 68: I want to quite lately. EPRHA is making me restless at night. I keep waking up in the middle of the night realizing I've been tossing and turning in a half conscious state for what seems like the last hour. Then I can't go back to sleep because of the heightened anxiety and breathing that I wake up with. I'm going to finish my 96 day commitment and assume this is just some form of resistance because it's never happened to me before.